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As We Go On~

2011-06-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hey! It's been a long time but this will probably be the last time I post on this blog. I will be moving on to a more purposeful blog with the intention of journalling! I won't delete this blog as it contain many memories for me, however it is highly probable that I won't be updating this blog anymore. If you are interested in reading my new blog, please contact me and ask me in person as it is extremely personal. Thank you for all who have been reading this blog so far, I really enjoyed this journey (: Good bye!

Socially~

2011-03-10T02:49:00.002+08:00

Hey blog! Am I glad to see you (: You are the only thing other than God I can be completely truthful to, because you're a good listener, you don't try to solve my problems, you don't judge me you just, accept :D Haha well time for another emotherapy~

Hmmm my first year of poly life just ended! Managed to somehow scrape through my final year examinations thank God and I'm enjoying my, truthfully speaking, undeserved holidays but whatever~ 6 weeks of goodness :3 Heh looking back I really think I severely overlooked this portion of my life, my academics, classmates, CCA, ECE society. I didn't try to build it, didn't care about it and well at the end of it I see that I've reaped what I've sown, nothing :/ No relationships to speak of, no knowledge gained, no achievement achieved... no legacy left behind :x It came to my attention that this is something God put in my life for a reason and I need to be faithful with it. It takes up a large portion of my life and I intend to get it right, be faithful in the little things and well I hope God will reveal the bigger things He intends for me in life~

I also started looking back at all the relationships I've ever had. Recently a friend have been talking about how she felt that she didn't have real friends, all the relationships she had were superficial. That's something I understand many teenagers struggle with and hopefully something I'll never have to. Anyway I realize that I too don't have a really wide circle of people I can share things with, not many people I can understand nor seek their understanding. I realize its not being authentic I struggle with, its actually caring about people. I find it hard to, putting it crudely, give a damn about things :/ I would rather just live my carefree life and that proves a setback in my building of relationships with people. I mean for me it's easy being authentic because thats something the church taught me since I was young, I have no problems opening up myself to others, even strangers because by the Grace of God I've never been hurt by anyone outside my family. But when I do want to share something that's really weighing on my heart I see the value in sharing it with someone I'm close to rather than just anyone. When I do look around... I finally understand what my friend was talking about with superficial relationships and stuff. I used to think that so long as I can have fun and talk crap with people they're my friends, if I do need to share something thats on my heart I can always turn to my leaders in church. But now I'm feeling the need for a peer to share things with, someone who doesn't have all the answers but struggles through it with me. I look at the people that I talk to, mainly girls because guys sharing stuff with each other would be gay X.x ( Okay for the church people, I know the church stand well, especially after the TLW sermon series but in all honesty, sharing emotions with females feels better :/ I'm sure you get what I mean. ) But looking at people that I talk to, I find that it is hard to relate to or talk deeply with any of them, even those I was once close with. Either she is in JC and will keep talking about JC life which I can't empathize with, or she is in poly and well I'm not close to anyone in poly, or someone from church which means she's probably younger than I am and I can't talk deeply with because I must carry myself well as a leader and protect member's hearts. And even for guy friends well theres only so much we can share before I cross the boundary of gayness so yeah... The only active social circle I have now is with church members and I only see them once or twice a week... Sooo yup, I have no life~ I'm just hoping I can someday find someone that I can understand and that person can understand me and maybe, just maybe, we can end up dating or something :P

Okay ANYWAY pardon my round a bout way of getting to my point, it's pretty late and I'm pretty brain dead so yea :/ Oya one more thing I just realized is that just because two person are authentic to each other doesn't mean they are close. Yup so thats about it hai pretty long rant tonight huh? (: So yea gonna talk to God about all these and go to sleep! Nights ^^

Seventeen

2011-02-02T03:38:00.005+08:00

Hey blog! Haha it's been a long time since I felt a desire to blog (: Yea well anyway as the title of this post says, I'm officially seventeen now :D Heheh

Yea anyway I was feeling pretty emotional (hence the blog post) about my new year of life so I kinda did my QT as usual when I feel emoish. I thought a bit about life and stuff and I started crying O: Haha I realized how I haven't properly thanked God for this life He has given me. Even as I was giving thanks for His faithfulness in the past 16 years of my life, I started realizing how lucky I was to be chosen as His son, to be adopted as His child and to be cleansed of my sins. Its not to say that just because He claimed me as His own I'd live an easy life, in fact it is usually the other way round. All these years I've been wallowing in self-pity and inferiority complex, I failed to see all that is good in life. I always compared myself to others, that I'm not handsome, not smart, not athletic, not musically inclined, not rich, not charming, not cool, not popular etc etc. However I've come to see that the fact that God has given me a life to experience is more than I could ever thank Him for. So long as I am in Him and He in me, well I guess that should be more than sufficient for me (: I finally understand when people say, be comfortable with yourself. Not because you lower your standards, but because there are better things in life to focus on rather than comparison. Once you take your eyes off yourself and other humans and lock them upon God's glory, all things seem so... I don't know, redundant? I'm really glad God gave me this revelation on this day. I want to spend the rest of this year living life to the fullest. And by that I don't really mean like doing as many things as I can and spending each second doing something beneficial. But rather, shift my gaze from myself and comparing me with others, to living each day for God. I really hope I can stay with this thought, this will be my "new year's resolution".

Another thing I was feeling kinda emo about was once again, girls & relationship *sigh* I mean what would an emo session be without thoughts of girls yea? HAHA! Yea so I was watching Disney's Hercules (this was originally what got me started on being emo btw), gotta love Disney's storyplot. ANYWAY, so Hercules falls in love with this girl who stops believing in love anymore after she got cheated previously (sounds like many girls in this age *haish*). He slowly works his way into her heart and they both died for each other and lived happily ever after (hard to explain go watch yourself xD). Yea so as I was watching the progress of this love story, I slowly thought of myself and wondered what kind of love story would unfold in my life in the future? Will the girl be a naive girl who believes in true love? Or will the girl have a heart of stone, hardened by the broken trust put in guys in the past? Will we fall in love in an instant? Or will I have to work my way into her heart bit by bit? Well getting older sorta got me thinking about all these I guess and all I can say is that as much as I desire an intimate relationship, I know that I am not ready for it. I definitely do not want my girlfriend to have a relationship with the current childish me, I want God to mould me and purify me so that I can be the best man I can be for my future girlfriend (:

Well yea anyway thats all the thoughts I have for tonight, I'm pretty tired after crying so gonna sleep nao X.x haha nights!~

Stress

2011-01-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hai bloggy! Heh been some time since I last posted :D Aye although don't really feel like posting too much stuff here anymore lolll, TOO MANY PEOPLE STARTING TO READ! D: I always thought my blog was a safe place for me to rant, free from community, then suddenly have influx of visitors >:( Haha sian yet another site in which I have to watch what I sayyy~ Sorry bloggeh, I can't be as authentic as I used to be with you anymore ):

Owell~ anw, I'm kinda feeling stressed from normal teenage guys stuffs, academics, religion, girls :/
Hehheh after being in school for 2 weeks or so since holiday ended, I realize I haven't absorbed a single thing from school, mainly cause I don't pay attention xD Haha and things are pretty bad, cause I'm about 2 chapters behind all the subjects I'm taking and exams are just round the corner, next month if I'm not wrong? Haish, I just can't find the will to listen in class, if I find that I'm not understanding what teacher is talking about, my brain just switches off and goes into 'play mode', SMSing ppl, using laptop, sleeping and whatnots :/ Hopefully my last minute studying can save me from lousy grades cause I really need to pull up or at least maintain my 3.6 GPA!! Dang poly sure is taking the discipline outta me :X Been a long time since I felt stressed over schoolwork ROFL!

Aye then religion, namely Christianity! <3 Haha I graduated from my cell a year ago and started cell leadership. After a year of being a leader, I'm starting to understand the pains and responsibility of being a leader, appreciating Van, Jon and Car more each week :/ Its not only just the stuff that I do in cell that matters, but the things I do outside. I have to make sure that my life is right with God, that I'm being a good Christian role-model everywhere I go, that I watch what I say and do. Because all these affect my relationship with God and in turn affects the way I lead the cell members. I'm starting to realize that I hold a great responsibility over their lives and that I have to account to God for each and everyone of them one day. The cell members count on me to follow after God because they are following after me, I never want to have to see them stumble or backslide because I led them in the wrong path... Pretty stressful trying to be a good Christian sometimes, the friends I have in poly... Haha not helping~ And the sins I'm struggling with in my life, affects the way I worship God, affects the way I lead in cell grawrrr! So tired~

Lastly... Girls D: Omg haha nightmare xD I never know what they're thinking ahahaha! Hai don't wanna post too much here due to privacy reasons, I should really get LiveJournal huh? X.x well anyway, so much for protecting their hearts and my heart ROFL! Just hope I don't become like the guys in my school, chatting up girls for the sake of, idk? Bragging rights? Haha yes, the guys in my school brag about how fast they are able to make girls open up to them, brag about how many girls they can flirt with at a single time etc etc. Yup that's guys in engineering for you. I feel sickened by the way they view girls sometimes, but sadly, I can understand the appeal in that. No wonder girls feel so angry at guys sometimes. Yeah anyway, I'm just feeling confused about the messages some girls are sending, how're they feeling about me and stuff~ Not that it matters of course LOL!

Yup but o well, nothing major to really fret over anyway, probably just feeling a little overwhelmed~ I'm still alive, God still loves me and I still have friends so don't have to think too much lah huh :P Just wanna live a simple, easy and carefree life wheeee!~ Heh haven't been doing a good quiet time for sometime, maybe tonight I'll just let God show me things from His perspective and maybe things won't seem like so much of a big deal after all :3

Goodbye, Hello

2011-01-03T23:56:00.006+08:00

Hey! Its really been a long time since I last blogged haha hai, just felt the urge to express my feelings. I was considering posting on Tumblr but it felt lacking in privacy, besides, didn't wanna shove my feelings into other users' dashboard heh :S

Anyway, tonight the fact that 2011 had arrived had finally hit me. Haha was too busy during New Years, organizing sleepovers and cell outings, preparing for word and worship for cell, getting ready for school and stuff. I knew that a year had come and gone but the emotional part of it never really hit me till today. So this post will be dedicated to 2010.

2010. The year I officially left Temasek Secondary School. The year I joined Tampines JC. Made many new friends there. Dropped out of JC. Entered NgeeAnn Poly. Made many new friends here. Became a leader in sec sch cell. Became a member in poly cell. Made many new friends in cell. Turned 16. Fell in love with a girl who returned the feelings. Experienced deep overwhelming emotions. Got to know a friend better. Joined a poly committee. Dropped out of the committee. Understood the responsibilities of being a spiritual leader. Struggled with sin. Lost the struggle. Entered an all-time spiritual low. Got selected for church camp leadership. Heard God's voice in camp. Came out of camp victorious. Made a girl cry in camp. Made up with the girl. Eyecandy-ed a girl in her cell. Started messaging that girl. May be starting to fall in love again. Experienced the most packed and exciting 2-week holiday of my life.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, 2010 has been a year of great changes. God put me through a lot of situations and taught me many lessons. I made many new friends but old ones faded. It has been a year of great joy and deep sadness. It has also been a year of both closeness and distance from God. Even though I've experienced much and doubted God much, no matter what, God has still brought me through everything and here I am, in a new year.

God is faithful, and I am thankful because no matter what I went through, everything and everyone that happened to me has made me who I am now. So I just want to say: Thank you my Lord God, for bringing me through 2010. Even as I enter 2011, may Your presence continue to be with me.
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There is a season for everything. I realized my season for immaturity has passed. May I grow in maturity even as I become 17.

Ask

2010-09-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

Be careful of what you ask for, you just might get it. I asked for drama in my life and I got more than what I can bite :/

Screw This

2010-09-12T16:05:00.002+08:00

You know what? I'll trust that this post isn't being read by any church people, and if it is being read, well not my fault I'm still human and the leaders can counsel or whatever me after that. I've really need an outlet for this thing if not I might explode. I definitely can't post it on Facebook due to the 1035 "friends" that I have, can't post it on Twitter due to the word limit, and Tumblr cause the person I'm talking about uses it fervently. So the only outlet I can think of is my blog where its practically dead and no one reads it. The stuff that I'm gonna write in this blog will really sound really retarded to most people, but guess what? This is my problem, if I'm emotionally immature I can't help it can I? So if you're just gonna laugh at my naivety, just gtfo thanks, I don't need you to read my blog.

Yup all started like 2 months or so ago when I was messaging this girl and she was messaging me back. It was really fun and all, took the boredom outta school and stuff. First time a girl messages me so often too, was really a fresh experience for me. Then I found out this girl had a crush in church so I was like really interested to find out who it was lah. She didn't wanna tell me who it was but promised she'll tell me before the crush ended so I didn't pester her to tell me who it was.

Guess what? One night I was talking to a guy about how I might be liking this girl and I was also talking to her about how long it has been since she promised she'd tell me the crush. Then she said she couldn't tell me who the crush was and she changed crush. I tell you, I was really super sian after that. Took a jog to get my mind off things. Well admittedly it WAS my fault as a leader not protecting my own heart so well can't blame anyone. What made me so sian was not cause she broke her promise or anything but that she kept me guessing even though she changed crush.

Alright so that was last Sunday when I made that discovery. So I was really moody after that. Monday I took my last paper and Tues the guy sleptover at my house, on Wed I went overseas with my family and well on Thurs and Fri the guy invited me to sleepover at his house and I though oh what the heck might as well. I told him everything and he managed to find out from the girl that her crush was actually me and that she really don't have a new crush. Normally I would have been happy ttm since no girl has actually liked me before. But now you've got to understand I'm a leader in church and she was my cell member and I might as well be diving into a pool of magma. So anyway went to his house to take my mind off things for awhile and I really thought that he could help me and understand me. Oh yea btw he's also my cell member. I thought I was fine with everything already and I got over it and all so I happily went to church on Sat with him. I didn't realize that seeing her affected me so much. Like she was complaining throughout the week that I was daoing her but I realized that she was actually daoing me in church every week and we talked only on MSN or SMS. Then I also don't know what went wrong with me, maybe cause it was night and all but I got the super emo feeling again. I can't explain why I feel emo sometimes and I feel so retarded. But whatever lah huh, it was the first time in a long time I could be alone at home at night. Luckily I borrowed a chunk load of Archie comics from the guy's house to read and get my mind off the matter. I felt tired eventually and just fell asleep. Now its Sunday which is today. It is the day now and well I don't usually emo during the day so I felt pretty alright, ate my lunch and lounging at the computer as usual. Then I received a message from that guy telling me the girl was emoing to him about this thing on MSN through video call and I think he's got fed up or something or got influenced by her emoing and told me to do lots of stuff and to "protect her damn heart... haha" =.= after that message I felt so angry and frustrated. I mean I slept over at his house for 2 nights, let my pride as a leader down and told him everything that I was struggling with, and one video call from a girl emoing and he tells me this kind of crap. What an asshole. I mean, he's been through a lot of this kind of stuff cause he's really popular with the girls and stuff, lots of girls fell for him and HE tells me to protect her damn heart, uhmm really just the advice I needed from a guy like you dude, thanks a lot.

Okay I really hope no one reads this post cause I also feel really stupid posting it online, but it feels better than ranting to a wall anyway. I can't rant to my cell members well, cause I'm a leader and I gotta hold myself like one. I can't rant to my cell leaders cause they're gonna tell me the same old thing about protecting girls hearts and setting boundaries and how I shouldn't be affected by this kind of thing, neither can I rant it to friends outside church cause they're gonna be like "awww poor you, just pray and lift it to God lah (:" and like I don't know that and they won't know exactly whats going on in my church either. I also ranted to that guy but see how things turned out? So too bad lor, poor me have to rant to a stupid online web page.

FML

Dream

2010-08-25T19:05:00.003+08:00

Last night was probably the weirdest night, excluding the fact that I slept for nearly 15 hours from 1am to 4pm LOL. I had this dream that I was having cell (of nearly 30 ppl) in my teensy-weensy bedroom (go figure :/). The topic we were sharing about was "sin".

We were like taking turns talking about sin, our thoughts on it, sins we did in the past and stuff like that. Halfway through the sharing I just went up onto my double-decker bed and lay down (I know, I'm such a pig haha!). The sharing continued and finally it was my turn and I was last to share (weird how I remember details like that).

Somehow I had what I wanted to share in my head all ready, and I was asleep! Not in my dream but like I was asleep and dreaming and somehow I came up with this statement: "Sin is not really what you do but with what intention you do it. No matter what you do, if you do it without having worshiping God in mind, its a sin. Which is why I really sin like 6 out of 7 days a week lah haha! (I'm a joker even in my sleep ._.) Cause I know I do things without that in mind except in church, and even some days I'm guilty of that. BUT when you do sin, always come back to God, cause (actually I can't really remember the exact words I said after this point but the gist of it's the same :P) He really loves you and wants to hear from you. It may be hard to not feel unworthy but you don't have to feel that way. He is merciful and slow to anger so come back to Him."

As much as its amazing how I managed to create all those logical stuff in my sleep, the more awesome thing is that it really spoke to me. Like the words I said, I can really relate to it especially at that point of time cause I felt really sinful and stuff and couldn't do my quiet time properly. But this reminded me once again that that shouldn't be the case. I can't really remember but I think this is the first time God spoke to me through a dream and yea its really cool (: Think I'm gonna do QT again tonight!

Just The Way You Are

2010-08-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

2010-07-29T23:36:00.002+08:00

Alright! I’m starting on Day 1 of the 30 days challenge, hopefully I’ll be able to persevere on in this ;P Anyway, there is no such thing as “best friend” for me. I believe that all friends are important in your life, its just who you enjoy being with most. In my case there’re 3 prominent cliques in my life that I enjoy being with most.

Secondary School clique: RuiJie, Sarah, JingYu, WeiXuan, Amanda, YongHan, Jillian, SinPong & Warren. These people are machiam my family members like that. Whenever I see them I feel like home, no matter how long we’ve been apart I still feel comfortable hanging out with them. We also shared many memorable times during secondary school, which incidentally, are also the most treasured memories in my life. Lastly, they’re the ones who probably first appreciated me for who I am in school and I really thank God for putting them in my life (:

Junior College clique: These peeps include my class and OG mates. There are too many people to type out here but for those who are reading, you know who you are :D Even though I was with them for only a mere few months, I still feel pretty bonded with them. When I’m with them I feel free to be myself: do retarded things and not feel judged, talk about “stuff” and not feel ashamed. They’re probably the friendliest, funniest, accepting people I’ve ever met and I don’t regret wasting my holidays going to JC just to meet them (:

Bedok Cell: Last but not least, my secondary school church cell! These people are the ones that truly made an impact in my life. These people first accepted the childish me as I was. They were the ones who invested in my life and looked past my previous self into who I could be. They were the ones who believed in me. I have become who I am today because of them and words can't express my gratitude to them and to God who placed them in my life (:

P.S - AND FOR THE REST OF YOU THAT MADE MY LIFE MORE BEARABLE IN THIS IMPERFECT WORLD, THANKYOU TOO!! C:

P.P.S - Thank you Lord, for being my bestest and most reliable friend ever <3

Thoughts...

2010-07-20T01:50:00.007+08:00

Hey peeps (: Sorreh haven't been updating for quite awhile~ Created a new blog on tumblr so might be neglecting this account even more if that's possible ;P Yeap anyway the link's here: TUMBLR
haha yea so might wanna check it out if you have the time (: Well anyway today's post is gonna be a little weird >< ahahaha I'm feeling a little random and these thoughts have been floating around in my head all week nao so I decided I can't hold it in anymore :/

Well as some people know, my church has a stand that youths should not date below the age of 19 and I as a leader know better than to break it or go against it. In some ways too I feel that it is a logical path to take y'know, focusing on your studies, serving God and realizing your talents, things like that. Indeed, I agree with those points, besides I admit that I'm emotionally too immature to start dating too so the relationship probably wouldn't last.

However logic and rationalization alone just don't cut it, there's still my emotions to think about :/ I've always prided myself on being a "mind over heart" kind of guy, relying on logic to make my decisions. However, fact is a fact, I'm 16 years old, in the middle of my raging hormones I desire things. Whenever I look around me, there is always an abundance of young couples about, and I feel something burn in my heart. No matter how much someone tells me that dating now is a foolish thing to do, I just yearn for someone to love. I don't mean that God isn't enough, but I'm talking about something more physical. I want to be able to feel the touch of a girl's hand, to taste the lips on her mouth, to truly look her in the eyes and tell her that I love her and know I mean it with all my heart. I want to talk to her as equals and be more open and authentic than I can be with my friends or family or even cell. This is probably some naive talk from someone without experience of having a relationship, but this is exactly why it appeals so much to me. People just naturally yearn for things that is "forbidden". Now I can sort of understand why Eve ate the forbidden fruit from the garden.

Ultimately though, I know that no matter how desirable it seems, no matter how much I yearn for it, I just want God to know that all my life is in His hands. May He reign in my life as He see fit because He redeemed my life and now I belong to Him. Even though I may not understand everything now, but I know that in His own time, everything will be clear and He will be the author of my love story. May it be the most beautiful love story ever written and Nicholas Sparks will hold no candle against it xD Hence Lord, I lay my future partner into Your hands and I trust that You will honor me even as I honor You, thank You (:

Overwhelming

2010-07-09T02:08:00.003+08:00

YO what up bloggeh (: One of my greatest source of rantation HAHA! Well this past week after the Leader's camp, Area camp, Encounter weekend and stuff has really seen me grow in my walk :D I'm now doing quiet time every night and I feel connected with God sometimes in school, an improvement from b4! Heh well praise God for my growth (: Haish but now at the end of the week, feeling slightly overwhelmed by some stuff. Gave up submitting a project write-up (losing 1% in the process), have not yet signed up for a NP leadership camp which deadline kinda ends tomorrow, realised I have not yet attended an important talk (luckily it is rescheduled for those like me who didn't know about it), found out officially that I failed the scholarship program in school, and having to plan for cell word this coming Friday. Oh yea, and needing to make time for my friends tomorrow to meet up. HAHA hai how ironic that a meet up session between old friends can come about as such a burden :/ However, I believe that God who is in control of my life will bring me through this in His will be done in whatever He sees fit. Cannot wait for the YOG holidays to come up!! :DD 3 months of slackation ;P mwahahhaa! Ah wells, time for my tired mind to go to rest (: Goodnight world! Goodnight God ^^
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Personal Message: If I could find someone to follow who knows my pain and feels the weight. The uncertainty of my tomorrow, the guilt and pain of yesterday.

Encounter weekend

2010-07-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

HAHA! Alright I know I haven't posted my vacation going-ons but I bet no one really reads my blog either way so I'm probably gonna give it a miss xD Heh ;D So anyways, this weekend was the encounter weekend where Pst. Mike Conell came to teach us about the ways of God, faith, holy spirit and stuff, and I've gotta admit, I've been receiving much more than I've been expecting... what an awesome God I serve (:

Yea anyways, this series of sessions started on Fri, it was about creating a spiritual atmosphere. I heard this sermon the last time he was here, but it served as a great reminder and refresher. And I was better able to understand the concept than I was before... due to my immaturity and stuff rofl like wdv lah huh LOL I've come to realize the importance of the atmosphere in which we interact in daily and how we have the power to influence it! Cause we are called to be ambassadors of Christ and He has put us in positions of influence =D

Then on Sat there were not 1, not 2, but 3 sessions whoowhee was really a very impactful Saturday I must admit! The first session talks about what living out faith was all about. Even though as a leader I know most of what he was talking about, but it reminded me once again that faith without actions is futile. Knowing that God exist is good, but even demons know that. So as Christians and ambassadors of Christ, we are called to hear what God has to say, to believe in it and take action.

Then there was session 3, it was realleh realleh one that spoke to me greatly. He taught us to hear the voice of God and I admit it was one of the most useful sermons I have ever heard since its very practical and not just theory. We were taught how to hear what God has to say for another person and prophecy over them. The thing that impacted me the most was both people that prophesied over me said the exact same thing!! It was like *whoosh* man AHAHA. I know know with all my heart that God has called me to polytechnic and I need not worry about whether it is my destiny anymore. He has also called me to renew my passion for the lost and exert my influence over my classmates although they may be much older than me /: This is something that I have to be convicted of and I need more time to process this...

Well either way, then came the 4th session... the most EPIC session of ALL TIME!! O= In this session, although I may not have learnt much in my soul, but I've definitely experienced much in the spirit (: I'm really comforted that the God I serve is one that desires intimacy, and although He is a God that Judges, He is first my Father and friend, and also the Shepherd that guides me where ever I may go. I was so touched by the holy spirit and felt His presence strongly. I was just so sad that I wasn't spiritually sharp enough to truly feel the intimacy at that moment. BUT, still I'm so glad that God didn't pass me by and I came for this session. Well, there's one more session to go 2mro and I'm definitely not gonna miss it! =D Well I need to go off soon to do my quiet time and enjoy my relationship with God (: This is a renewed me signing off~
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Personal Message: I just want the thank God for just investing so much into my life although I'm just an imperfect being. For putting all the He has put in my life to strengthen me and bless me (: Words are just not enough to describe the God I serve

First Week of Holidays

2010-06-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

Alrighty, first week of holiday is over and I don't think I ever had such a packed one week in my life, at least spiritually haha. Well holiday started one week ago after I ended my last paper on Friday. In all I had 4 papers to take and I believe I can pass all 4 however I kinda regret not studying harder /: Poly just kinda strip you of the urgency to study LOL so hopefully I'll kinda get an A there somehow yea (:

Well holiday started with church service on Saturday and Leader's Retreat immediately on Sunday. Not much time to pack so threw in as many clothes as I could the night before and slept as early as I could convince myself to. So I met Carissa and Christie at a busstop at around 6.45? (can't rmbr) to go for breakfast tgt at Harbour Front. Met David at Pasir Ris MRT and Jon Cho somewhere along the Green Line. Ate at Macs before meeting the rest of the Campers at the fountain outside Vivo City. My group name was "Viva La Swoosh" (oh yea~). Sadly, none of my group members were from cell ): But we set off and went on our merry way to the ferry terminal to embark on our journey to Batam, Indonesia! The ferry was quite alright, no seasickness whatsoever, just a tad too long. Upon reaching Indo, took another long bus ride to the GoldenView Hotel, not too shabby at all. The food there was really great... for those who like fried seafood haha! Mostly crabs, prawns and fishes were being served. Shared a hotel room with David, Samuel and Justin. They were great camp mates ;D Really made a few new friends like MingWei, WeiMing, Dominic and Joan. We had a a few really really inspiring video-based sermons and some processing time after each video. Overall the camp was really authentic and brought restoration to my soul. The camp lasted 3 days and I went back on Tues.
(To Be Elaborated)

After camp was over, I had a night to rest before going out with my OG mates, who were none other than: ZhiJun, YouLiang, Kenneth, MuanTing and Leon. The same old group who have been going out for the past few outings LOL! How sad that out of the what? 30 ppl in the group, only 6 are left tgt ): But then again, I count it as my blessing that I have these few good friends who I can keep in contact with =D Basicly, the outing could be aptly described in one word: FAIL! Hahaha we planned to go to Sentosa to fool around but in the end just nice that day got torrential downpour and Singpore got flooded -.- JUST NICE siaaa /: Well in the end we watched 2 movies: "Prince of Persia: Sands of Time" and "The A-team" then went to MuanTings house to pool/mahjong/eat. Haha it was around midnight by the time I reached home.

The next day I had to prepare for yet another camp, the BEDOK AREA CAMP! Haha met Ivy, David and Jon Cho to prepare some logistics stuff on Thurs before the camp actually started on Fri, the other leaders like Car, Van, ShiYun and Amanda were also coming to sleepover first to prepare for the camp itself. Okay I'm really tired down here now so I'm gonna continue this week in another post yea? (: Same with the I-nspire Leader's Retreat.
(To Be Continued)
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Personal Message: God is the source of all our growth, no matter what kind of growth we go though, it is all spiritual growth.

Some Samaritan?

2010-05-31T22:26:00.004+08:00

Wooo! 130th post! ;D Haha aiya I know less lah but still~ Thinking of changing my blogskin... but dno how to change X.X haha someone helpee? /: aye still rmbr lower sec ask ppl help me change blogskin, now poly ready still dno HAHA aye boon ttm >< psh anw poly common tests coming up VERY soon T.T Gna have like 5-6 tests, counted alot for poly liao lor ): Meh anw seriously nothing to talk about sia, poly freakking boring for me -.- everybody all make friends in camp alr, only me some noob everything and everyone all dno sianz hai /: ah well joined Volley ball as my CCA haha realised I really suck at it, but doesn't really matter heh cause obv I'm not gna be in sch team ;P really really looking forward to my holidays =D Going movie with 10S12, sentosa with OG25, area camp with Bedok cell and Leader's retreat with leaders (duhh) HAHA its gonna be such a fun-filled holiday!~ Ah well so darn bored, gotta go soon, have to read up on my ENPS practical test which is coming up 2mro!! DD= Dang I Hate practicals -.- hopefully get at least an A? =) Haha in any case, will be updating soon after all the exciting activities! =D This is a hyper me signing off~
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Personal Message: Present suffering may pass but Lord Your mercy will last. Don't tell God how big your storm is, tell the storm how big your God is (:

Annoying Orange

2010-05-24T01:48:00.003+08:00

Wazzzaaaapppp!! Hey, hey apple! Hey apple! Hey, hey apple! Apple hey! Hey! Blog: SHUTUP! Haha rofl sian tomorrow have school again sia big whoop /: Well anw today went out for lunch with family to celebrate my sis's 13 bday. Went to some jap restaurant in City Hall that I could've sworn its purpose was to drill a hole in our pockets xD Luckily parents were paying ;P haha well this week was pretty uneventful yet again, bought FINAL FANTASY XIII (booyahh!!) Haha well prolly gonna waste another few weeks of my life trying to complete this game before buying other games haha! For a no-lifer like me, games are the best way to spend my time ;D Just gotta deal with the guilt that you're not doing anything productive haha >< either way school is getting more and more mundane -____- Everyday physics, maths and electricity! Oh. My. Tian. Well either way no matter how boring it gets, church has taught me that I should still keep a positive attitude to honor God and stuff haha and I've been guilty of not doing that /: aye it sucks to know that every single imperfection in your life is sin in God's eyes bleahh but still its wonderful to know that God still gives us perfect love even through our imperfection (: Cell was really large this week, I counted 33 people in cell including cell leaders and that is a HUGE number I can tell you that! =O Haha and the SOTA group was really sweet, baked cell cookies (: haha it was really delicious ;D well mind's been rusted for awhile, will be hard to get it cranking up again. Gotta try though, poly CAs are coming up soon ): Haha but I expect it to be simple (pls pls pls!) Either way, its 2 already and I gotta get my beauty sleep ahahaha! This is an ill-disciplined me signing off~
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Personal Message: It is not a matter of right or wrong. It is a matter of whether it is God honoring. What the culture in today's society may deem right does not make it right in God's eyes. This is a very logical concept but hard to accept.

"Don't ask" day

2010-05-18T01:01:00.001+08:00

Haha okay regarding my title, do you ever feel that the day sucked so much that when you even sense people beginning to ask you about your day you just respond: Don't. Ask. Rofl yea sorta same as today for me haish... haha okay lah it wasn't that bad, just one of those days y'know? Uhhh... no? Okay never mind haha! Yea anw slept at 3 last night, woke up late next morning for a project meeting, cabbed to school from Dover, got scammed $4 to buy a micro-size hotdog with fruit soda (sprite), teacher scolded the class, got a less than expected grade in public speaking (got an A but expected higher marks), went to Temasek just to find the school closed, tried to buy FFXIII for my PS3 but it was out of stock, couldn't borrow library book cause I have outstanding fines. Came home pissed out of my mind lah HAHA aye well sometime life just give you the lemons, and there's no way I'm gonna make lemonades outta those shitty rotten lemons ROFL! xD Well just watched Ninja Assassin online, haha bathed my eyes in blood and gore (: made my day lmao ;P Anw been slacking much these past few weeks, gotta get my head back in the game, another loooong day 2mro so gotta hit the sack soon. This is an aimless me signing off~
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Personal Message: Bah humbug, can't think of anything for today. So I'll just say, why do all good things come to an end? o.0

Oceans Will Part

2010-05-17T02:23:00.002+08:00

Well haha finally found time (more of took the time xD) to update my blog heheh /: Yea actually I have many stuff to talk about, church, poly, life, stuffs that I have been too lazy to update on the blog haha well lets just see how much I'll type this time shall we? ;P Anw well I guess I'll start with poly life first, seeing as I owe this blog a post on it haha! Hmm... well if I were to sum up poly life in one word it would be: BORING! Like seriously ironic lah haha in sec sch everyone was like poly is fun! Poly is fun! Turned out to be meh /: Probably cause I'm in Ngee Ann Poly and that I'm in aerospace electronics rofl. In JC it was like super stressed and super fun, both extremes, this is like... nothing? HAHA first time I feel so sian of school lah, even friends are not a motivation for me to go school. I study like physics, maths and electricity for the most part of my school life, and since school ends late most days and I live in the East while school's in the West, I don't hang out with friends after school and stuff, besides, they're all busy with their own stuff anw. So yea, life's pretty boring in poly, taxing on my mind too in someways, not due to overwork, but the dullness of lessons, I expected poly lessons to be much more fun, my assumption was wrong though, my course was engineering so guess its a dull subject anw, shouldn't blame the teachers for it /: HAHA yea well so this is pretty much my poly life. Planning on joining volleyball as my CCA btw haha ;P
Now onto church! Yea church's been meaning much more to me these few weeks, I've been experiencing God's grace and mercy and more and more and understanding more about His unconditional love and how He has set us free from the bondages of the world. I truly feel blessed to be a child of God and I'm learning to love my Shepherd (: The sermon past few weeks has been about Psalms 23 and I'm so blessed by it:
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.
Though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I shall fear no evil,
for You are with me.
Your rod and your staff,
They comfort me.
You lay a table before me in the presence of my enemies,
You anoint my head with oil,
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
How awesome this passage is (:
Yea anyway I guess this post will be long enough for now ;P haha will try to post soon ;D Haha less than three <3 xD This is a grateful me signing off~
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Personal Message: A thousand times I failed still Your mercy remains, should I stumble again still I'm found in your grace. My heart and my soul, I give You control. And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise, from the inside out Lord my soul cries out.

Weekends

2010-05-06T23:38:00.004+08:00

Wah eh 's been a heck of a long time since I posted my last post here haha, sian really don't feel the drive to update my blog >< Meh but whatever~ the last weekend has really been a very fun weekend, really wish I could keep living in that weekend LOL! On Fri after sch, went to MJCO with my dear Temasekians: Sarah, Shermaine, HuiShan, Rachel, to watch performance, haha it was more of the fellowship I enjoyed rather than the performance itself rofl, to be frank, their standard was rather low, but who could blame them, it's only like 4 mths into the year, haha where got the drive to practice ;P HAHAHA! Anw just to recount a funny incident during the CO performance: There were these photographers running up and down the aisle to take photos of the performance which was normal, but after awhile, I noticed that one of them didn't zip up her skirt, so I went to whisper to her. ROFL! After that I didn't see her again hahaha xD Yup anw after that the next day on Sat, I went to Louisa's chalet after church. Wow it was really a party party man, with clubbing music and booze and sparklers and stuff. Haha was really a test, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death... LOL! Yea anw it was pretty awkward to see people other than my JC friends there but nevertheless, I was really ecstatic to be able to see them again =D Esp my bros Brandon and Andy, too bad Alden and JianGang couldn't make it there ): Well I had really a blast with Crystal, Christabel, Andy and Brandon. We fooled around all night, watching Iron Man 2 at 2.40pm then proceeded to slack at Mc for the rest of the morning. Haha we were so high, laughing at everything and camwhoring the whole way xD Was really a fun time catching up with them. Miss you guys ): In the end, I reached home at around 8+ and just crashed /: Then after I woke up, I proceeded to make my way to HuiShan's birthday BBQ celebration! =DD Met Sarah and KhoonHwa to buy her birthday present, haha was a weird combo but glad we could chat normally. Anw more came to the BBQ later on, while her JC friends cooked for us. Wow really appreciated them man, working like maids. Feel damn guilty sia cause all girls >< aye but anyway really had another great time just hanging around talking crap hahaha! Aye now that I think about it, 2 friends turning 17 while the poor me stuck at 16... haha how disheartening D= O well, at least when I'm in poly year 3 I'll finally be older than ppl in my school xD
Yup anyway this pretty much sums up my weekend. Didn't even talk about my poly life yet HAHAHA oh well, guess I'll save that for another post (: As for now, ciao~ This is an undirected me signing off~
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Personal Message: The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He lays me down in green pastures and leads me beside quiet waters. He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.

The Rotting

2010-04-12T03:41:00.002+08:00

Okay wow blog, long time to see... Really man 's been a real long time =O Haha well nothing much to update anyways, ever since I left JC, I've only been like rotting at home, playing Pokemon on computer, staring at my Facebook, surfing YouTube, playing GTA on my PS3, etc etc... (boring) Stuffs /: Haven't been doing my Differenciation, nor my quiet time, nor my important matters, don't know whats wrong with me hahaha seems to have lost all urgency in life >< Hehe maybe JC drained me more than I imagined eh? ;P Heh but oh well, went out with TMS gang recently =D Was really a well-needed pick-me-up! Hung out with JingYu, Jillian, Joyce, YongHan, Amanda & RuiJie, the usual. Just too bad WeiXuan, Sarah and SinPong couldn't make it, if not whoa, full house manz ;D Yup well went Ehub! to watch CLASH OF THE TITANS!! (woots!) Finally gotta see this show =DD Storyline and action is really not bad, don't watch the 3D though, according to a friend, only the subtitle pops out -.- Well yea pretty much sums up what I've been doing this past week. Haish gotta pray for urgency man seriously, I'm wasting my life away zzz... Well gotta go sleep soon, its 3.50am haha pretty tired now cause I slept at 6.10am last night (or morning LOL). Yups this is a rotting me signing off~
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Personal Message: "You paint the morning skies with miracles in mind." Indeed, every day of our lives is a miracle in itself, how often have we overlooked this point and wasted this precious God-given gift doing things that don't really matter?

Official Holidays

2010-04-05T02:10:00.003+08:00

Haha hey blog! (: I'm so happy cause I don't have school anymore for at least 2 weeks ahahaha! Oh wells gotta find stuff to do during this break =D Yups anyway this weekend is just such a special weekend and means so much to Christians in general =D Anyway I'll just start from last Thurs.
Thursday was a halfday for our school (happy right? ;P) Haha it was also the day of my offical release from JC! ;D wahahaha! Aye I'm seriously gonna miss my friends ): Wish me luck making new friends in poly haish~
Well anyways, Friday was GOOD FRIDAY! Wooots~ the day God sent His Son Jesus to die on the cross for us. Really grateful that He redeemed my soul and gave me a life, that He loved me even before I loved Him. Haha yea anw on Fri I spent my whole day in Holy Trinity Church acting as Jesus in their 3 Good Friday services, it was like omtian, so exhausting man. Even though this whole thing was seriously time-consuming and sometimes I felt really bitter about it wasting my time, but after this whole thing has ended, I felt that maybe God placed me in that play so as to increase my awareness of why are we as Christians celebrating this day. By putting me in Jesus' shoes (or sandals LOL), I can better understand what He went through for us and the shame and pain He suffered on the cross. Well anyway it was through this play where I knew quite a few interesting people like Zac, Damien, Maria, Fran, Germaine, Vicky etcetc. Really a unique experience doing rehearsals and stuff, although not gonna do anything like it soon ;P Yea moving on~
On Saturday was my church's Good Friday cum Easter service (: Invited a few friends who couldn't make it in the end zzz haha really dissapointed but ah wells~ The service was REALLY good! The guest speaker... meh not really, but the drama and SP's message was DA Bomb manz seriously. So was the worship too ;D
Yups and Sunday did nothing much, just slacking around and had Amaths tuition (differenciation as usual). Yea this about sums up my weekends aahahaha!
I WANNA WATCH CLASH OF THE TITANS! ;( SOMEONE CALL ME OUT LOLOL! Heh anw will be ending here, this is a free me signing off~
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Personal Message: Sometimes, its the routine that saves you from boredom.

Bye (':

2010-04-01T00:25:00.005+08:00

Dear friends of TPJC,
I know I'm so gonna miss you people (: Even though you and I may get caught up in our own work and may soon slip each others minds, I just want you guys to know that you were a significant part of my life and I'm sure God put me there for a purpose =D I'm really sorry I have to leave but I feel this is something I must do haha ;P You awesome bunch of people impacted me more than you can imagine and I regret having to leave before getting to know you people more D= I really wanted to share a strong friendship with you guys but... ah wells~ Anyway this song is dedicated to you ppl: By Your Side by Tenth Avenue. (Just the chorus part of it though xD)

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Friends from OG: ZhiJun, YouLiang, Kenneth, MuanTing, Leon, Kaede and Elissa (:
Friends from CG: Brandon, Andy, Alden, JianGang, Vimal, Chris, Crystal, Christabel,
Karen, Louisa, Audrey, WaiHeng, Charmaine, Clara, XiuWen, XinYun,
Jasmine, Ruth, Valarie, Sangeetha, Suga, Addina, CianWen and
Cheyenne (:
Friends from Random G: YanLing

Tired~

2010-03-23T23:54:00.002+08:00

YO BLOG! Haha oh man I'm sooo tired ): heh slept at 4 last night >< almost died during econs lect mannz. Dno why the air-con spoil again, don't think someone smoked in there again, anyway its a really stupid reason lah, aircon spoiling cause of ciggaretes, sch budget siol ;P Heh well anyways~ today was Jess' birthday (: gave her presents yup lol well other than that nothing else much happened today I guess? Will be having chem test tomorrow, cfm fail 100% plus chop haha, don't know why I even bothered revising /: HAHA oh well, going to poly anyways ;P wahahahs so can slack! WOOTS~ Yup anyway ytd just had my first rehearsal of being Jesus, the lines are pretty easy, just have to make myself more dramatic LOL aye this dumb thing is gonna take up the whole of my friday holi ): sucks >< meh anywho school is really starting to bore me /: it was pretty interesting at the start with all the fresh new subjects and lesson types, but after awhile the hype wears off and its back to becoming a routine haha, friends are the only thing keeping me going =D haha 10S12 FTW! This class is by far the best class I have ever had before, not in terms of friends yet I guess but in terms of bonding everyone at least seems okay with each other. Yea anyway just learnt something today, not all irritants are born that way. Who in the world would want the voluntarily embarass themselves? I all the more should know better since I was once that way. It is always due to an unseen hurt deep inside the person's heart, never judge a book by its cover, very true statement indeed. Haha well with this insight, I'll just leave to take my much needed rest (: nights!~ This is a tired me signing off~
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Personal Message: One of the worst things you could probably do is that thinking back on your death bed and not being able to recall a single significant thing you did that contributed in some way or another to something or someone.

The Begining of the End

2010-03-22T02:14:00.003+08:00

Oh how I've missed you blog ;P Haha yup a few hours from now and I'll have to go to school so I have to make this quick! 21 days of prayer has finally come to an end, and so have my March holidays. Thinking back at what I've done and what I've received, I really regretted not putting in more discipline to pray and connect with God. I could've received and heard so much more and I know it. So dissapointed with myself. However, I'm still not going to give up my goal and that is to cultivate a healthy prayer life for myself. 21 days of prayer might be over but God is still here and I'll continue to strive to deepen my walk (: Aye as for school well, haha as typical students, left my homework till the last minute and still have not finished yet, expecting to get some scolding from my tchers ;P WAHAHA yup~ Kinda missing my friends already cause I know that I'm gonna have to transfer to poly sometime soon already, it's a done deal. Yea but anw, kinda glad I'm passed that emotional period, kinda like I PMSed or smth -.- haha! Yup its gonna be 2.30am and I have sch... today LOL so I have to go quick >< This is a tired me signing off~
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Personal Message: If I'm sent out to reassure others, then who reassure the reassurer? God does (:

Disorientation

2010-03-16T03:23:00.002+08:00

Okay hey blog, its really been a long time ahahaha~ Yup there're lotsa ppl chasing me for a new post (you know who you are ;P) heh so I'll post one, anw its really been long overdue and there're things going on in my head that I will probably feel better if I type it out. This blog was supposed to be a journal for my walk with God as stated in my last entry, like my prayer life and stuff. But its really been an epic fail haha out of all the 3 commitments I made out of this 21 days of challenge, I only completed one and that is going for at least 3 prayer meetings. This I done pretty well I guess, I went for more than 6, twice the requirement. However I didn't pray everyday and I have not fasted 3 days yet. I really tried to pray once a day but I don't know whats stopping me, I want to pray but just don't have that discipline haish bleahhh, don't even have to talk about touching my Bible. Tsk. I feel real bad cause I'm supposed to be a leader for my Secondary Sch cell... Maybe I'm not meant to be a leader? Heh~ Well time will tell I guess. Recently I've also been feeling really disoreintated, you know like the moving from JC to poly decision. Makes me feel like the time I've spent in JC is all a dream. All the friends I made, the class I'm in, the lessons I've learnt... Like all going to waste /: Aye then I'm getting another fresh start in poly, sorta like restarting a save file in a game LOL haha yea but it kinda feels that way, everything is gonna begin from ground zero again. Gotta make new friends, get used to new environment and everything (RAWR)! Really, I'm typing this with alot of fustration. If not for the moronic MOE system where only Amaths students can take H2 maths I wouldn't have to go through all these changes. Makes me feel kinda guilty changing too cause I think that God may have actually meant for me to continue in JC and I disobeyed. I really hate thinking so much and changing so much, if ppl know me well, I'm a really simple guy, I dislike thinking about subjects such as Boy/girl relationships and religion because it gets very complicated not only mentally but emotionally also. My motto is just to live life simpliy, easily and carefreely, but apparently life ain't that kind /: I'm really feeling overwhelmed by things in life, the roles I have to play, being a leader, a friend, a cell group member, a student, a child whatever have you. Normal ppl don't even notice these stuff but I struggle with it. I just read a book b4 writing this post. It is a personal log of a man who is mentally retarded, he started off cheerful and honest, ignorant about things around him, blur like sotong like that, but happy. Then due to his thirst for knowledge, he allowed scientists to conduct an operation on him that allows his IQ to drasitcally increase, causing him to become an intellectual genius in a matter of months. However, his emotions couldn't catch up with his intellegence and he ended up a very sad person. I can kinda relate to him. During my primary school days and lower sec days, I was always very blur, didn't know what was going on around me, laughing along even though ppl are teasing me. Even though I didn't know much then and was quite fustrated when I couldn't understand stuff, I was happy most of the time, without responsibilities. But after Sec 3, I began to understand more things, for the first time I could see things from different perspectives and, to be thick-skinned, I felt smarter. But more responsibilites came with it, I think a lot more and I get confused a lot more and I'm as fustrated, maybe more than I was previously. I'm talking a little too much lah haha! Anw for those who are willing to read up to this point, sorry and thankyou haha ;P I wanna go on and on actually, alot of thoughts in my head but thankfully (for you) its hard for me to put it into words and its getting late, so I'll end off here =D Once again, thanks for anyone who actually read finish this post. This is a disorientated me signing off~
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Personal Message: Sometime life really gets too complicated... Farmer ftw, just plant crops and harvest crops, few other worries.

21 Days of Prayer

2010-02-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

Wazzup blog/journal/diary wadevr, guess what today is? =DD It IS the START of *drumrolls* 21 DAYS OF PRAYER!!! *applause applause* lmao okay lame hahaha yup but it is the start of an exciting 21 days where Riverlifers commit themselves to pray and fast and in short, cultivate a good prayer life that hopefully we'll maintain even after these 3 weeks ;P Yup okay so imma gonna start journalling stuff into this blog, things I hear or feel from God, my thoughts, things I learnt maybe? Just things about these 21 days. Ofcourse I'll still be crapping about my everyday life faithfully as usual ;D Anyways, things that I'll be praying about is definitely about directions in life and for the prayer meeting thingy that I talked about in my last post ;P Now, not say I didn't pray for directions in life already, but truth to be told, I'm scared of where God will send me. Both ways seems exciting to me and I'm afraid that I won't obey Him even after He gives me the direction. I've got not much time left to decide. Probably by next week or so, have gotta get my heart right before then. *haish* Well, on a lighter note, I'll definitely be looking forward to the prayer meetings, although I'm almost sure that I'm gonna sleep >< haha, JC lifes' no walk in the park /: Well yups anticipating the works of God happening in church and life and stuff =D Will be aiming for praying at least 20 mins a day I guess? And work it up I hope >< Haha hopefully this won't be too big a target for me seeing that my prayer life is almost non-existent ): Yup and aiming to go for at least 10 prayer meeting sessions out of the 21 days. Most importantly however is that I hope to cultivate a discipline of quiet time as I know it will be very crucial in my walk with God. Heh hopefully to readers this post is not boring you or anything but yea, really looking forward to see myself grow =D
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Personal Message: Cultivating a discipline is easier when you have a goal in mind.

P.S- Happy belated Birthday Christie (:

Journaling?

2010-02-24T00:21:00.002+08:00

Hey whassup blog, the ceiling. Okay lame /: Haha s' been a long time since my last post, been busy with JC life and prcrastinating hmwrk HAHA! Yup tonight more free cause 2mro no lessons, only cross-country ;D Or the Road Run as they call in it TPJC /: Heh yups speaking of school, been adapting well. Have a circle of guy friends I can belong, knowing more about the rest of the class, getting used to the JC life in short. Hahaha sad knowing in my heart that I'll have to leave these all behind in the near future but its the best for me... I guess? o.0 LOL yup actually I don't know, but I feel poly is definitely better than H2 China Studies and H1 Maths anw haha :P Anw today has been quite an interesting day. Went to Jon's house for dinner and discuss cell after school. Met up with Jon, Carissa, Van and Ivy. Had a reeelllyy long talk about how we want to see the cell grow and the discipleship stuff. Still new to these things so have plenty to learn haha. During the session we digressed to journaling our quiettime and I felt, yea its about time I started with me being a potential leader and all ;P So I'm deciding to make this blog my temporary journal spot =D haha after things get more personal I guess I'll swap to a book or smth, but for now (or March), I'll be using this place as a place to journal God's revalations for me (: HAHA yup looking forward to what the future has to hold, more spiritually put, what God has in store for me ;D Wahahaha! Anyway, one of the things that came to my mind, not sure if its from God or not, is to form a prayer meeting session in TPJC. It first came about as a random thought and became a more serious idea when Van told me to leave a legacy in the school. Haha well will try to gather some Christians that are interested and try~ Aye now very sleepy liao *yawn* so will stop and sleep soon ZZZ haha anw just keep commenting in the cbox about my previous post, really interested to know your POVs haha! This is a eager me signing off~
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Personal Message: How I wish I could be called righteous and holy in God's sight. Would be cool heh

Relationships

2010-02-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggy! This is gonna be a really short post cause I'm supposed to sleep an hour ago and I'm just going to copy and paste what someone said to me today which I felt very interesting and intriguing at the same time. And if you do read my title, yes, its about relationships ;P Me and a guy friend were like talking about crushes and BGR, cause of the recently past Valentine's day, and he gave me some interesting insights about dating scenarios which often come to past. When a guy dates a girl for the first time, he usually wouldn't be the one to break up. No matter how bored or how annoyed he is with the relationship, he will still continue as he wants to remain loyal to his girlfriend. Hence, usually the first relationship a guy has will be broken by the girl, and the guy will greive. This causes the guy to turn into more of a playboy, hence the saying, guys only experience one true love. Another thing is that, for girls, getting into a new relationship is easy as they compare their current boyfriend with their previous boyfriend and see that the current one is better. However for guys, their first love will always be the model for their perfect girlfriend. Haha I'm not sure how true is that nor whether he was being too sexist, however I really found this insight realy interesting /: Haha yea thats all for today's post, abit weird but, meh~ hahaha! Yup's this is a (love-sick?) me signing off~
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Personal Message: Oh man, girls are really very sensitive creatures, gotta watch your mouth around them wahahaha!

CNY/ Vday

2010-02-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day bloggy! (Few days late but meh) Thats right, this post is gna be about this 2 in 1 occasion (: Lmao actually also nothing much to talk about luh huh, just the usual visiting relatives and stuff, didn't even get to go out with friends ): Yea boring stuff, except maybe hanging out with cousins, that was fun (: but the rest, mehh, wastage of time in my opinion /: Got quite some moolah from my angpaos this year, haha but somehow seems like the sum's dwindling every year hmmm... some relatives are cutting costs! >< UN-acceptable LOL! Yea anw on Sunday went to my grandparent's house only, mom's side and dad's side. Wanted to catch a movie with friends one but one by one all not free or too tired zzz irritating -.- Haha I was actually expecting more since Sunday being a Da Nian Chu Yi cum Valentine's Day. Wanted to go out and have fun, instead came home early and rotted till the next day, what a let down ): Haha wdv, anw went to sleep over at cousin's house for the next two days and watched Percy smth smth and the lightning theif or smth like that. Crappy movie. Trust me.
Oya there's a nice paragraph that a friend of mine sent me during Vday that goes something like this:
Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous,
Love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish;
It does not take offense, and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth;
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.
All in all, nothing much eventful happened during my CNY celebration and nothing to speak of of Valentine's hahaha xD Well a nerd like me can only hope for a relationship ;P Haha I'll have fun waiting LOL~ Yupps anw, this is a bored/ tired me signing off~
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Personal Message: Personally, I feel that what makes a relationship between the opposite sex so enticing is due to the fact that you can express your love for them freely as opposed to just being friends or aquaintances.

Muan Ting Tao Eh

2010-02-10T23:14:00.003+08:00

Hey sup bloggy! Haha has been talking with my OG25 almost nightly through MSN for the past few night LOL very funny xD I found out, Muan Ting is a gangster and You Liang loves Kaede ;P Lmao anw today's conv with them was focused on our Taoeh. She very imba one, private part also nvr hold back, draw for us her imba boobs LOL Then she also say she can read boobs (don't know how she does that) plus she also braid her armpit hair LOLOL XD Haha well our convs are really crappy and nonsense so don't mind ;P Anw today went sch as usually even though most likely transferring to poly liao. Bought my school uniform finally even though staying in the sch for only like 1, 2 mths like that lmao. Haha attended a H2 maths lecture, learnt a new term! "Asymptote" or smth like that, its some imaginary line thingy thing. Haish dno what the MOE teaching the youths nowadays LOL Heh anyways I'm really so so so glad that I finally past the emo stage, finally can see the light =D Well anw I promised my dear OG fren ZhiJun that I'll give her an honorary mention in my blog post so here is it xDD HAHA I bet she very happy lol the depriaved kid ;P Haha dun worry lah someday a guy will come and appreciate you for who you are =D Heh anw can't wait for my fatty sisters to come and celebrate my birthday with me LOL
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Personal Message: Its hard to leave after having found a place and acknowledgement from people around you.

Poly JC?

2010-02-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

Hey whassup dudes and dudettes (: Aye this past few days has been more struggles with my faith in God. My JC subject combination really sucked and my the result of my poly appeal was my 3rd choice, all these demoralising events really sucked me into a spiral of unhealthy and rebellious thoughts. Throughout the worship and service this Saturday, I can hear the Devil planting lies and thoughts into my mind that caused me to lose my motivation to worship my Lord. The worst part about this is, I couldn't deny or make a comeback for any of those thoughts. Finally I decided to let go of those thoughts though and let go and let God. Even though things ended well, I still regret being affected that much before that. Yup this past week has been a constant struggle for faith and choices, like example now, I'm faced with a choice whether to continue in JC or move on to poly. My church friends tell me that its all God's plan to put me in JC and that I should trust Him and stuff, while my parents and relatives tell me that I have better prospects in poly compared to the 'half-assed' subject combi that my JC offered me. I am truly confused by which is the truth. However, I know that whereever I go, God still can use me for His purpose and ultimately, I just have to work hard no matter where I go (:
Anyways I spent today celebrating part 2 of my birthday LOL hahaha I went out with Wei Xuan, Jing Yu, Sin Pong, Rui Jie and Jillian. Aye if there's one thing that I can thank God for, its the friends He's provided me with. Without them, I don't know what I'll be. Went PP to rollerblade and cycle, then ate dinner. They made me a card and bought me a pair of pants haha not to mention the sweet cake they bought for me (: I'm really thankful for all these as I think that this is God's way of supporting me through them, and as I said, they are really a blessing to me =D
Hahaha anyway its been a long time since I've posted a song and so I'll be posting one. This song is really amazing and inspirational (: I present to you, Pray by True Vibes:

Thinking though, what to do
You're searchin' every angle, and point of view
Good advice, well rehearsed
Only seems to make matters worse

When you're at a dead-end, where can you go?
My friend, theres an answer I know

Pray, when the road is steep
Pray, when your hope gets weak
Know the Father hears through, the silence and the tears

Pray, when you don't know how
Pray, heaven's waiting now
And Jesus is just a breath away... Pray

The deepest sighs, of the heart
Sometimes its a strangle, when we first start
To wrap our needs, up in words
And trust that somehow we'll be heard

Draw near, and know you are loved
God hears, and His heart is touched

Pray for the strength you're needin'
To go on believin'
No matter what you face
You'll have the wisdom and the grace to.... Pray

Hope it'll bless your heart. This is a conflicted me, signing off~
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Personal Message: The words you speak reflects the character within you. How it be that the same toungue used to worship the Lord our God be used to curse? This should not be.

P.S- Dear Lord I pray for Sarah that You'll grant her the peace of mind to know that You're in control of everything and that You'll be with her in all that she does. I also pray for WeiXuan Lord that you'll comfort her hurting heart. I know that You're the only one that can heal her soul Lord I pray You'll draw her back to your heart once again. In Jesus' mighty name I pray, Amen.

TPJC

2010-02-03T23:02:00.005+08:00

Hey wassup blog hoppers! I'm in a better mood now thanks to your prayers, well wishes and of course, God's grace. Even though I'm still sad about how my subject combination has turned out, I'll still give God the praise He deserves cause I know He cares for me (: Well gonna have to make a big decision later this week when the the Poly appeal results come out but, ah wells, will cross the bridge when we reach it /: Anyway, I felt that I really owe all my friends a big THANKS for their birthday wishes, really sorry I didn't reply your smses and stuff, I was feeling really down and there was really alot of smses coming in >< Anw I wanna say thankyou to everybody who wished me and prayed for me and comforted me, and I just want you to know that you are a blessing to me (: The fact that you bother to read my blog with its super duper small print is evidence that you care ^^
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Ppl who wished me: Sarah, Shermaine, Si En, Belicia, Jonathan, Cheryl, Vanessa Yap, Hui Shan, Rui Jie, Jillian, Wei Xuan, Joseph, Gracia, Rebecca, Jie Yu, Ernest, Vanessa Koh, Yong Han, Sin Pong, Joyce, Tricia, Zheng Xin, Eunice, Hao Lin, Grace, Zaacheus, Edna, Chen Yang, Jing Yu, Amelia, Jess, Rachel, Amanda Tay, Joylynn, Amanda Lim, Daniel Tay, Jun Kai, Dorothy, Wai Peng, Rachel, Sheng Han, Jing Jie, Isabel, Vera, Matthew, Melissa, David Ho, Jing En, Joan, Yiu Ho, Randolf, David Chan, Nuo Si Lei, Derek, Christabel, Jonathan Yuen, Emmerson, Shi Qi, Sherwyn, Sei Chang Peter Lee, Kelly, Joanna, Tze Hern, Natalie Ng, Eileen, Khoon Hwa, Singru, Jun Yu, Hannaah, Nicholas, Amanduh Lim, Jezreel, Yi Zhen, Hong Jie, Yong Jie, Faith, Xiang Jie, You Liang, Kenneth, Elissa, Zhi Jun. Ofcourse, my family and my cell (:
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Haha some wished through sms, some wished through facebook, some are my best friends, some I don't even know /: But I still wanna thank all of you very much for making my birthday a happier one (:
Anw, I still dread school, all the sufferings it made me go through *bleahhhsxz* hai but I guess life goes on~ Haha attempting to read up some amaths before going for amaths tuition... not working zzz haha the simultanious matrices almost killed me -.-
Heh anyways no matter what I study, as long as I study hard and get good grades, there'll always be opportunities =D I hope...? LOL Yea well will be looking forward to my first PE lesson in JC 2mro haha! Well even though I may be still human and have my own worries about what's to come and unseen things like that, I still want to stand up and say that I will trust in You for you are my strength (: This is a hopeful me signing off~
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Personal Message: When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with You above the storm, Father You are King over the flood. I will be still know You are God.

P.S- Lord I pray for Shermaine that You'll grant her the comfort that You have granted me and she'll be in peace even through the death of her grandfather. In Jesus' mighty name I pray, Amen.

Sour 16- Sadness and Sorrow

2010-02-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

Heh wassup blogging community (: Hai I'm not really in the mood to blog right now but, then again, a 16th birthday only comes once in a lifetime ;P I'm still plagued by my troubles even more than ever and I'm still very scared for my future. The service really did help calm my nerves and put things in God's perspective for me but the human nature in me still tends to rise up heh... I may be a teenager but im still a spiritual baby /: Okay well nvm all those, come to that in a little while~ I celebrated my birthday on Sunday, a day b4 my actual birthday on 1st of Feb. Went out with Jing Jie, Rui Jie, Jing Yu and Jillian. Haha was actually expecting more ppl to turn up but due to some stuff alot couldn't but I don't mind, don't think I can keep my mask on to so many ppl either. Its not that I didn't have fun, but I used that day as a means of escape from my reality which I could not bear. Truth is deep inside, Im very insecure and worried... scared. But still, got to thank all of them really for making my birthday an enjoyable one, especially Jing Jie (: At least the vision that I'll be celebrating my 16th birthday alone didn't come to pass hahaha xD Anw, these few days was really hard for me, setbacks after setbacks in one sense or another. I don't know for how long I can take this any longer but I know I'm reaching my limit... I've always been a simple guy, can't take this kind of emotional stress hehe, yea. Well refining fire or not, I'll trust in the Lord still and I hope He'll honor me by taking away my suffering asap. Really desperate for this situation to end. Haha actually there's been many other activities that I did like going to Sentosa, going night cycling, our cell's farewell cell and stuff, all worth one blog post each... Too bad I just had to feel this way. Yups anyway I'm going off soon, tired from crying. Been acting like a pussy the last few days, can't stand myself for being so weak ;( This is a scared me signing off~
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Personal Message: Would death actually be a better option? Haha I kid ;P

First Day

2010-01-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

Do excuse me if my blog post is moody and stuff cause my spirit is really at an all time low now, bitching incoming so prepare yourself ;D I started of this day briming with excitment (and sleepyness), anticipating a fun day ahead of me. I took my dad's car to TPJC and walked in with Rui Jie very confidently. Well like most guys, I acted cool and stuff in school lah ;P LOL and the day began rather smoothly for me. The principal was such an ass though, treating us like kindergarten kids and all, even sucking up to PAP members and stuff, really irritating. Luckily my group wasn't so bad, my OGL was really caring too. We had recess, ice-breakers, long boring talks abt subject combinations, tour of the school, lunch, even longer boring talks abt more subject combinations... Which was then that I realized to my horror... WTH if no Amaths background gotta take a qualifying test to qualify for H2 maths =O And if I don't qualify for H2 Maths I can't take H2 Physics! *double whammy* You might be wondering whats the big deal, thing is, im in sci stream and I wanna take maths and physics for my university... So it really is a huge blow to me, I wanted PCME... So I signed up for the test (which was held on the first day -.- no real time for me to study and prepare). When I saw the test paper my fears came true... the test tested Amaths topics (GG) zzz. I knew then that I really was in deep shit, my future is more or less screwed. Well got really depressed thinking of my future and stuff, held back my tears from school all the way to whitesands in which I hid in a cubical and cried my heart out haha 's been a long time since I cried like that. After that my mind was just blank the whole way, even now /: Anw talked to my parents and a few other seniors abt it and really gotta make full use of this critical period. Well thats about all, I'm really emotionally drained, really hate the teachers and the school AND the principal but I'm probably gonna be in this school for the next two years so I'd better get past those thinking... Aye if possible, keep me in prayer (:
This is a very troubled me signing off...
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Personal Message: I know God has plans for me, plans not to harm me but to prosper me, to give me a hope and a future... But is my faith great enough to believe it?

SLACKER!

2010-01-22T01:55:00.003+08:00

Awww blog, I feel like such a pig ): Hahaha anw, missed out on bloging recently due to the fact that I'm to lazy of thinking of stuff to type, 's sorta like writing an essay so my brain just shut down or smth... Oh man, I'm so gonna get slaughtered in GP. Well went out for lunch with Shermy granny and Sarah mommy on tues (omigosh how time flies =O) Yup went to TM and ate seoul garden the buffet. Really felt that I wasted my money, I DIDN'T EAT ENOUGH TO MAKE THEM BANKRUPT!!! D= Bo hua sia, meh. Anw after the fascinating lunch (of observing carnivorous veggies), we went to slack at fattiest Tan's house (Shermy granny lah). Yea on the way, I saw a playground and wanted to play on the swings =DD Eventually, fattier and fattiest couldn't resist the fun playground had to offer and started swinging and see-sawing with me (: Wahaha and through the see-saw, I realized that fattiest Tan was actually the same weight as me *gasp!* =OOO LOLOL yea, reached her condo a short while later and saw pony in the house already. I played Shermy's Wii and got pwned by the sports games (boxing, tennis, baseball etc etc) Nope I didn't lose in the game but my muscles almost died -.- I'm still feeling the ache ): Eitherway, Natalie came too after that and we played monopoly for awhile b4 Veggie had to leave so I accompanied her out. (Too bad had to leave two chiobus bhind xDD) Heh that abt sums up my outing /: On Wed I had piano lesson, nth much to talk abt unless you wna hear how I slack like a pig, and on Thurs I went out with Shenghan for abit, wanted to play basketball but stupidly, all the basketball courts in Pasir Ris didn't have the nets installed. So went running instead. We ran up and down his HDB's stair case, realize hadn't been working out much ._. Yup, had dinner at his place b4 coming back home. Anw I really gotta thank Veggie and Horse for this past week for the dumb chatting on MSN. W/o the crapping on MSN, I would've died of boredom... Or thrived in it, who knows? Lol anyway really wna make the most of my last week of holiday (attempting) to read up on my Amaths. Thanks to KhoonHwa for the awesome site that teaches me the JC subjects and Amaths... Too bad the angmoh damn chim, I read surds cannot understand liao =_= Haha well, just shows that I've gotta put in more work in JC T.T This is a relaxed me signing off~
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Personal Message: Discipline comes from having a vision, a goal. Never forget my God-given Vision... Never

From Yesterday

2010-01-19T00:55:00.003+08:00

Hai wassup blog? Hehe been sleeping late kinda often these days and can feel my sickly body taking its toll lmao ._. My very irritating cough's been with me ever since camp has ended, its like it's in love with me or smth refusing to go away lolol... graawww! Haha well not that it matters. Alls well with me, or so in the worldly sense. I just came back from an awesome church camp and have been attending church like almost daily for the past 2 weeks, which have beenr really great for me, I mean I get to worship God freely and thats all good! But aside from my life in church which has improved so to speak, is there any difference in my conduct away from church? Is there any improvement in my personal walk with God... oh man the 4 words that I dread when combined together. Been struggling to do quiet time since God knows when and its really been a challenge to keep my thoughts and speech in check. Such a challenge that have I already given up the fight? Aye I don't know how am I gonna manage myself but repentence is definitely first on the list here hehehe =/ Well kinda sucks to start a blog on such a morbid note but myself sinning and seeing friends that are potentially struggling in the Christian faith has really gotten my spirits down. Haha ah wells maybe I'll forget all these troubles after I hang out with my friends tomorrow =D But the matter still remains, do I still got the guts to face God despite all thats happened, or will I shy away from His presence and become a rebellious fool once again? Well only time will tell, but for now, I don't wanna think about these headaching-thoughts (LOL) Haha well I AM a simple guy, hate to think too much and look too much into matters such as spirituallity and relationships and stuffy stuff like this /: Heh may be the reason I don't connect well with girls... or just simply cause I'm too immature xDD Haha whatever it is, I'll keep my end of my bargain with God. He let me hear his words, and I'll be obedient. He has called me to be an example to both the believers and non-believers and to reach out to those not yet saved. He has also put a vision in my heart to be a leader, and am currently working towards it. Well actually dunno why I'm typing all these, seeing as these thoughts are close to my heart. Then again, I probably need to sort out my feelings in a more visual tangible sorta way. Its always been this way for a simple-minded guy like me ;P
Haha well on a lighter note (omigosh! my blog's on fire!! geddit? lighter? ;D okay joke epic fail, whatever), I'm surrounded by Christian friends, strong in the faith (: And I can always count on them whenever I'm in need of prayer I'm sure. This is kind of a comforting phrase for myself but, God is the same yesterday, today and forevermore. He is the constant in our ever changing world and we can always count on Him to be our tower and refuge, friend and provider, or just be who He's meant to be, my God (: And for I know that He knows the plans that He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. This is a torn me signing off...
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Personal Message: Am I any different from yesterday?

Appreciating the Last Few Days

2010-01-16T02:56:00.002+08:00

Sup bloggy! Today, or rather ytd (fri) was a hectic day, at least near 4pm. You know why? Thats cause of the submission of the JAE form =O Haha I'm a guy that likes to play it safe so didn't wanna submit the form too fast just in case I change my mind or smth but apparently I was playing it too safe and ended up typing the form at 3.50+pm. Scary siol, I couldn't type properly cause my hands were shaking from the stress hahaha! Imagine never submit in time then you see me working this year in macs ah, as an O lvl graduate. Haha next time teacher ask me write essay on: 'How you spent your 2010?' easy for me ah ;P Yup but anyways just in case anyone's interested, these are my first 3 choices: MJC (sci stream), TPJC (sci stream), SP- Aeronautical engineering.
Yup I'm not expecting to get past my first 3 choices so won't be bothering to mention the rest haha ;D Anyways due to the fact that I'm expecting to get into JC, I have decided to spend the last few days of my holidays attempting to read up on Sec 3 A maths T.T (saded) Yup so maybe I'll just figure out simultaneous equations for now LOL! Well ofcourse I'm not a nerd either so I'll be trying as much as possible to spend the last days of my precious (homeworkless) holiday slacking with my dear friends =DD Well today's post ain't gonna be long cause I've gotta sleep soon, going to Lasalle open house 2mro with church friends so gotta wake up early *yawns* oh man zzz... Speaking of which, I've always been bewilrded (spelling epic fail) by the phrase/idiom/wadevr: The early bird catches the worm. I mean so what if the early bird catches the worm? The late birds also catch the worms just that later thats all, I mean cause worms are in abundant supply... arn't they? o.0
Well anyways the above proves how tired and random I am now to be spouting crap like that wahahaha so will be going off soon >< And one last thing, just in case you were wondering about the farmer crap at the end of my last post, nope I'm not trying to be a poet or anything, but I just admire the simple life of a farmer, not needing to make many life-changing decisions aka JAE submission hahaha yup, I'm a simple minded guy so I'd rather use brawns rather than brains /: Well anyway the owner of the blog whom I introduced in the previous post is in coma (private joke) so pray for her? xDD Yups this is a relieved me signing off~

Song of Surrender

2010-01-15T02:53:00.002+08:00

Haha hey blog! Trying to catch up with my blogging, reviving it again haha ;D It might provide me with an outlet for my fustrations if I enter JC so I figured, might as well start now so it won't be so sudden when I start posting stuff abt my school life /: And while I'm here talking random stuff, I might as well bring your attention to the blog of a friend of mine who's posts might incidentally encourage you, if you happen to be at a crossroad of life like my Sec 4 peers are experiencing now. http://peppermintdays.livejournal.com/ <====== Thats the URL to her blog (I hope she doesn't mind, but then again, I linked her at the bottom so I guess not ;P) She's got some cool verses and lyrics that you might want go check out. (Songs are hymns btw so don't be fitting the lyrics with rock music LOL xD) Okay, due to her inspiration, I too have decided to post a song *gasp* =O LOLOL haha but yea its titled "Lord I Offer My Life To You" by Hillsong (yups imma good christian boy =D ) and here it goes:

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before You O Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaim
The joy and the pain, I'm making them Yours

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Then go and repeat the middle para again (:

The link to this song is here ======> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hs-WpiTd7oc
Go check it out if you haven't heard the song, I'm sure it'll bless your heart. Unless you're some kinda anti-christ then different story lah LOL! (the begining of the song's quite long so skip it lest you get bored )
Haha this post is preeetttyyy random but I can relate to my own post now, seeing as I have to submit my JAE choices about 12 hours from now *gulp*. I won't post posts that are completely unrelated to me lah huh hahaha well this has been a long but enjoyable post (:

P.S- Shermaine aka Shermy aka Horse aka Noona was upset at my last post cause I asked her to read it but didn't mention her *gasppp* =O so I'll take the liberty to mention her wonderous name in my post today =D So this time round when I ask her to read my blog, I'm sure she'll be well pleased with this honorary mention of her name xDD mwahahaha well enough of her I guess, this is the confused me, signing off (:
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Personal Message: I wish I could've been born a farmer, away from these urban worries, just working in the fields, leading a simple life, using brawn instead of brains ;P

End of Year holidays

2010-01-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

Hey blog, long time no blog haha, sian might turn out to be a long post due to all the activities that happened during the holidays. Okay lets see where to start... hmmm well after Os was over, basicly slacked my ass off these past 2 months haha, went out a few times with chenyang, elieen and huishan to ECP and stuff, going bowling, rollerblading, and stuff, heh ;P was really fun hanging with lower sec buddies (: then I also got a PS3 during the IT fair, was really cool, got games like COD: MW, Assassin's Creed, GTA 4 and other games, spent alot of time playing haha xD can't really remember other stuff I did during the hols ;P then came Christmas, spent it as boringly as usual nth much, got invited to a cool church celebration from my junior then had to prepare to go Bali the next day. (Aye sad didn't get any presents for Christmas D= not that I ever did anyway /: ) Haha the Bali trip was really cool, went to see monkeys, scuba dive, snorkel, ride motor boat, check out shopping centres, water rafting etc etc... alot of stuff, was really a great experience for me (: oya and I rode the airplane myself haha was a cool experience (AirAsia is a daylight robbery aircraft, dun take -.-) Yea then soon after I went for church camp. Camp was cool, this was the first time I experienced God talking to me =DDD i can have a whole blog post talking abt camp but now im really tired and half drunk so dun think i can recall and type it all LOL yea but the main thing is that God told me that I should not give up reaching out to my friends and that He'll be my support in my christian life =D cool no? haha will try to come out with a blog post abt camp when im more sober xD yea now on to the next part, this year was the best new year i've ever had haha. Hung out with my cousins at my granddad's house, we talked alot, played psp, watched movie, slacked at mac and made a fool of ourselves haha was really fun =D just hanging out and stuff yea really cool. Whats after New Years? Its JC Camp! Another camp you might ask? Yea I asked myself the same question -.- LOL haha contrary to what I thought it was actually quite fun and cool! =D Met lots of cool ppl around my age there and learnt alot thru the workshops too. Now I may be rushing it but finally it now the part where I really wna talk abt, my O level results *gasp* =O Haha God is really faithful and he provided me with a great result. Yups I got 13 for my L1R5 and 10 for the B4. Now this result really exceeded my expectations but... haish I can't believe but im actually dissapointed cause i can't meet the MJ requirements haha well, I just gotta learn to be thankful in everything God provides for me. Seems like I'm still a spiritual baby ;P Haha aye I can't really express all my feelings in one post and in this tired state of mind, but thats basicly all thats happened to me during this past holiday (:
P.S- To those whose O lvl results didn't meet their expectations, God has a plan for whereever He is gonna put you so just trust in Him. He will never leave you nor forsake you

Prayer For A Friend

2009-10-07T16:37:00.002+08:00

Lord I lift my friend to You,
I've done all that I know to do,
I lift my friend to You.

Complicated circumstances
has clouded his view.
Lord I lift my friend up to you.

I fear that I won't have the words
that he needs to hear,

I pray for Your wisdom oh God,
and a heart that's sincere,
and Lord I lift my friend up to you.

Lord I lift my friend to You,
my best friend in the world,
I know that he means much more to You.

I want so much to help him
but this is something he has to do,
Lord I lift my friend up to You.

'Cause there's a way that seems so right to him,
but You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world,
too blind to see the strains.

Lord I lift my friend to You,
I've done all that I know to do,
I lift my friend to You.

3-in-1

2009-08-31T19:36:00.000+08:00

Haha okay this post is gonna be really long (I think) cause I'm rolling 3 day's post into one =S Yup so on Friday after our Pure Lit P2, Sarah, Sien and I went to meet HuiShan at TM (poor her waited for more than 2hrs for us) to eat lunch at Seoul Garden =D Haha it was really fun stuffing myself with garlic chicken meat and desserts LOL ended up with a stomach ache but was worth it I guess~ heh was fascinating to see how the carnivourous veggie eat meat, stuffing the meat down its stem xDD LOL also really surprising to see HuiShan and Sien eat so much haha, can't imagine by their size =/ Well anyways, ate until 3+ and we left, went our own seperate ways. I met up with YongHan, JingYu, Jillian, WeiXuan and Amanda at EHub! the K-box there at 4.30 cause they went to sing, so played my PSP while waiting for them (poor me D= ). Yea took us a long time to decide but decided to visit Amanda's house and watch movies =D If I've ever seen a nice house, its nothing compared to her designer style/ glam/ wadevr you call it house. Even though its a flat, it was still the nicest flat I've been to. Yea so we rented White Chicks and Coming Soon to watch at her house. White Chicks was damn funny haha but many lessons can be learnt from it. Jillian left after watching it and we proceeded to watch the thai horror movie, 'Coming Soon'. Its stupid but scary, you know like those kinda dumb horror movies that storyline sucks crap but you still get scared cause the ghost looks damn ugly? Yea, Coming Soon was smth like that =/ But anyways scared the shit outta us so we decided to go to Amanda's room to do some cam whoring to calm our nerves xD Me and YongHan ended up putting on make-up haha and I wore a skirt even =O But I look damn ugly dressed as a girl so don't think I'll change my gender anytime soon xDD wahaha! Yeps so left at 10+ in the end and even now I still feel a little spooked by the ghost, scared of the lift breaking down at night LOLOL!!

Den on Saturday, I recommited myself back to God. Really been a long time since I felt the way I felt this Saturday, like the shell I layered on my heart has been shed. Yea, gotta strive and get back my relationship with Him cause I've been slacking off in this aspect of my life. No point getting damn good marks for my 0-levels but throwing away my relationship with God yea? Haha it was also a long time since cell was this big. We took up more than 2 foodcourt tables sia =O haha really happy to see so many of my cell members =D

Okay, finally today, was TEACHER'S DAY!! Haha actually also nth much to talk about today lehhs~ This morning I was supposed to help decorate my class at 6.30am so I set my alarm at 5.20. I snooze all the way until 6.20 before waking up and rushing out of house zzz Yea so didn't make it in the end. Meh. Yea the hall performances was really entertaining hahaha but the emcees dressing abit weird ah =/ The guy dressed like some gangster wannabe and the girl, as quoted from my friend, dressed like a cheap slut LMAO okay lah, very bad but its the truth =/ Haha for the performances it was mainly just like a singing talent show haha, Temasek really needs to get more innovative menn~~ anyways I think the most entertaining performance was the Temasek Freestylers LOLOLOL!! Haha wahlao I can't blive the school let them dress like that but well~ nose bleed sia xD Heh anyways the class breakfast time was really crazy. It was like a eating cum picture taking cum comment/testi writting cum chocolate fighting session haha, really packed. Lol quite alot of things lah actually, but not exciting enough =/ Haha anyways I think our class t-shirt is the best in the whole level =DDDD (too bad ruijie's name is not on it xD).

Lol yea finished my post liao, long right!~ haha 'see ya bitch' ^^ <----- (go watch simple life)

Chinese O-levels

2009-08-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hey guys this post might have a little emo tinge to it but with good reason ofcourse (: Anyways, before I start my blogging, I wanna wish my blog a happy 100 post anniversary!! Wootss~ Yea finally reached the 100 post mark, wanted to celebrate this by posting something big and happy but seems like it is not to be so =/ Yea today I received my Mother Toungue O-Level results, and truth be told, is not really what I expected -.- I was aiming for a distinction, I don't mind an A2 as long as it was an A. I was pretty sure I could score it too cause it seemed quite easy at that point of time. When I received the results, well, disapointment was not an inappropriate emotion to describe how I was feeling. Haha B3. DAMN!*^&#)&#&)*&#&%!!!!~~~~ If there wern't the potential of my church friends reading my blog, I probably wouldn't have held back the vulgarities but wadevr~ Heh damn... of all the grades I could've gotten, I had to get one thats in the middle of compulsary retaking and distinction, dammit lah! Now I face a tough decision... should I retake the O-levels or not? Meh not gonna elaborate further on this point, moving on~
Anyways last weekend, went to Jess' church, the name was a Tabernacle smth smth can't rmbr haha LOL yea anyway tongbang-ed her dad's uhhh... pick-up truck was it? and went to Paya Lebar i think, where the church is. The building was quite nice and the ppl there also very friendly, her sis also quite funny lol. Stayed till after dinner den went home first, nth much happened but still it was fun, interesting anyways =P
Yups thats about all, I'm done crapping, there's english prelims 2mro so gotta get back to studying so cya (:

Cross Country

2009-08-08T00:03:00.003+08:00

Gee today super tiring sia D= sian wake up at 5am just to reach ECP at 7am for cross-country zzz well was quite excited at first lah but was bummed after the weather turned up the heat~ We were combining a few events into one today: Cross-country + Milo record breaking event + celebrating National Day. Really packed tight if you ask me =/ Meh anyways I was really running seriously for the cross country cause last year in Temasek mah so yea, was aiming to get to 30 at least. I didn't notice when the Sec 4 boys started running, I just know that when I finished it was around 9:17 or :18 like that. So if what my friend said was true that we started at 9am, I lost to the champion by 2-3mins nia, bummer (didn't even get any postion sia)~ Well whatever, ran the best I could so no regrets :) Yups got lots of body aches later on through the day though zzz After going through all the other mundane activities, we finally got released and I went with JingYu, Jillan, WeiXuan, Amanda and RuiJie to the nearby Subway for lunch. Bitched about Khishal, as usual (not good but damn funny) then took bus 31 I think, to Tamp. Wanted to go movies with YongHan, Ruijie, Jillian and JingYu but decided in the end that we were too tired and dowan waste $$$ so went to YongHan's house instead =DD Just in case you didn't know, his house is like a food paradise and DVD shop all rolled into one so yea, its a fun place to hang out =D Watched Scary Movie 2 & 3 (really funny but mainly sexual humor that only guys appreciate) and Freaky Friday (about this mom and daughter exchanging lives). Watched with Jillian, JingYu and RuiJie then RJ left first. We were bored after that so we cross-dressed with our school pants and skirt haha it was hilarious xD Stayed until like 9:30pm like that then went home. Today really had been an eventful day, even though never really studied, I wouldn't count this day as wasted cause sec school life is not all about studying anyways (:

Changed Skin!!

2009-08-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

Heyhey peoples!~ been awhile since I last blogged, lots of things happened =/ But first things first, notice smth diff abt me blog? Yes! I changed its skin!! =D With the help of my sis, I finally figured out how to effectivly change the blog skin, bold the words, add music players and such. Yeps before today I was a blog-dinosaur (if there's such a term =/) but now, I've evolved =DD LOL meh anyways~ yea these few weeks have been really happening for me with all the mugging concerns, tuition work piling and relationship (friend) stuff stuff, haha been really tired. I've even got this disgusting eyebag which Joyce said was purple (ewwwww~) =O Haha but still its a fresh experience for me, staying back in school to study and going to night study programs, really mugging for the prelims and Os. Can die if I still get above 25pts for L1R5 for the prelims -.- Ever Since sec 2 have been hitting the 30pt mark... really undesirable if I must say =/ Well I don't really think I've actually had it really tough compared to other people like say, Amanda. Ask her for yourself if you must know but she's definitly having a tougher post exam period than me. Haha wells went to FOP recently with True Worshippers leading the worshipping. I feel its really unfair for 'Ang Moh' bands to come and perform and have a overflow of stadium and a Jarkarta band come just to see the stadium half-empty. Its really a sad sight cause they are really good too. Anyhows though, it was really a good time of worship (: Well, just a short update on the happenings anyway, got to go pack and sleep soon if not needa pay $2 for being late for school =P Yupps so update you guys soon (:

P.S- Be changing my 'name' to 'Ven_Gence' instead of 'woshigabs' from now on, so if you see this guy tagging on your blog, don't "who are you?" me thanks xD

Chinese O-levels Oral

2009-07-09T17:09:00.002+08:00

Sup sup! Long time no blog =D Kays updates on my life~ Yup starting with the Youth Day weekend, I went to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen with RuiJie and Joyce. I'll rate the movie 3.5 stars at least for its superb animations and visual effects, not to mention the awesome soundtracks like 'New Divide' by Linkin Park and '21 Guns' by Greenday. However, the storyline was a little weird and it was confusing at different parts of the movie especially when the scenes kept changing in the middle of explosions and stuff. Overall however I felt that the movie did not deserve the 0.5 star that Yahoo movies rated it (LOL!). After that went to get Yuan Yuan's birthday present for her birthday celebration on Monday. I got her a dice/ashtray/keychain combo thingy thingy, it might seem kinda cheapskate but it costed $5 okay LOL! Hahas anyway on Monday, we gathered at Tampines library to surprise Yuan Yuan at her house. It kinda got spoilt due to certain circunstances (involving Sin Pong -.-). Yups arrived at her house at 11.30am and left at 12.30. We were celebrating her BD at Seoul Garden at Marina there so took a MRT there and monkeyed around on it =D I.e. Pretending to have H1N1 wearing masks, jumping from chair to chair and impersonating MJ's dance xDD haha got there, and ate the buffet (whoa was really a large variety of food). I left halfway cause gotta meet Hui Shan and Sien to study at Tampines library ZZZZ!! Haha so went back to Tamp and met them and started on some work. Played a prank on Sarah after we couldn't concentrate anymore, bluffed her that we were pissed at her cause she fly aeroplane us... the amazing thing? SHE BOUGHT THE CRAP xDD WAHAHAHA!!! Her replies were damn funny, not gonna post here but trust me, it was Hilarious xD Anyways~ we ate dinner at the CS foodcourt after that and went back home. Not too bad an experience, a rare chance to chat up with some old Synergy friends =D Will be looking forward to including Shermaine and Sarah in the near future~

Now onto the main topic, the CHINESE O-LEVEL ORALS~~~ okay frankly speaking, I felt it was a breeze, especially the passage, hardly any word that I didn't know how to read. Now the conversation was a little tricky and I'm not too sure about how I'll fare for it, but still I'm pretty confident that I'll score for this oral =DD Haha might post my answers to the questions some other time but for now, I gtg soon so byess! (:

Jesus take the wheel

2009-06-23T18:12:00.000+08:00

Cool song by Carrie Underwood (:

Carrie Underwood- Jesus take the wheel
She was drivin' last friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
And save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
And save me from this road I'm on

Oh I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh take it take it from me
Oh

the Slacker

2009-06-22T01:51:00.003+08:00

Haha kays been quite awhile since I blogged sooo yeap, gonna update now (: Its really been quite a crazy weekend for me this fri-sun couldn't really catch my breath (not literally =/). We had this class BBQ on Friday so since me being the responsible (=D) member of the food committee, planned and gathered the rest of the food committee and together with Edna, WeiXuan and Ashraf, did a last min food shopping spree =DD haha together with Edna's $50 donation to our fund, we bought more than expected =P After which we went to Ashraf's house for a few hours where we (more of WeiXuan and Ashraf) cooked the ingredients in preparation for the BBQ. There were like 6 cats in his house and I went to disturb them, earning me the 4 scratch marks on my hands =S Loll so yea cabbed to Warren's condo after that to set up the BBQ pit. I slacked at the bowling lane where Warren booked till 9pm =O Haha had loads of fun playing card games, bowling and eating =DD A little before 10pm, I left with JingYu, Jillian, XuanJun, Jacob and SinPong to play LAN at Katong. We L4D-ed all the way till past midnight before going to Jillian's 3-storied bungalow to 'tawn' the night. In the end, JingYu, SinPong, Haikal and I went to sleepover (a mere 2-3 hrs of sleep) at her house. It was really fun but kinda tiring as I was already exhausted after the 2 hours of LAN-ing. Had lots of fun crapping with them and suaning Jillian before finally going to sleep. After I awoke, they went to eat brunch at the Bedok Corner there while I went to Crowne Plaza Hotel at T3 to meet my parents for the buffet. It was also really fun hanging around with my cousins and stuffing myself at the buffet haha. Upon reaching home, I hopped onto bed and slept right away from 4-10, getting up only to eat before getting up the next day at 11. Really felt like a pig LOL Dayum really felt like I wasted my Saturday away, have really been doing some serious slacking during this June holi when I should be mugging my ass off =/ PLEASE ANYONE, IF YOU ARE ORGANISING SOME STUDY GROUP OR SOMETHING, CAL ME ALONG TOO YEA? (: Haha wanna go to study at airport sometime~

21 Guns

2009-06-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

Haish the 2 weeks of horrible, boring lessons finally coming to an end. Tomorrow and Monday then I'll be free (: Sian-ed suddenly dun feel like going church =X No lah kidding just gonna hate it when everyone's all talking about the Leader's Camp... makes me feel so left out. Meh but wadevr its the first week after a long time since we last had cell so I'm not gonna miss it just because of something so petty =D Here's a nice song that I heard =O Super nice lorr:

[Greenday- 21 Guns]
Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And you're thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something side this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Church Camp

2009-06-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

Lol kay so the first week of a boring post-exam remidials just ended and the second week's comming up -.- basicly to sum up what happened, there were lots of boring workshops, lessons and a bloody irritating PTC session zzz really renewed the hate i have for my parents >:( grrr grr meh but whatever whats the past is gone. Now I'm really very dissappointed... really sad that I couldn't go for the church camp for leaders. Damn it would have been my first time going and because of my parents and this stupid school remidials im missing it... im supposed to be at Malaysia now learning new stuff and getting touched but, here i am at home doing maths homework -.- chao sian-ed ah wells, at least i can still see my friends... &^(*$%&%^**(!!!!! AHHH!!! HATE THIS!!! Haish kay kay anyways really gotta buck up on my grades 30pts for L1R5 ain't gonna get my anywhere. Lol really wish i can go back in time to enjoy the lower sec days...jeez school really sucks

Post-Exams

2009-06-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo sup peoples (: Mid-years are over, MT O-Levels are over, I'm free now right? =D No. zzz... We, Sec 4s, still have post-exam remidials of up to 2 weeks, cutting our June Holiday by half T.T. Ofcourse, being a perfectly resonable and logical boy, (:, I understand that this IS a crucial year (like DUHH) for us O-level participants and thus I will not complain too much about these (boring and exhausting) workshops =P HOWEVER, I am pretty conflicted about something, and that is, School or Church? I have a church camp commin up in a weeks time and its the school activities are still going on. So the question is, do I sacrifice 3 days of school for church camp or do I sacrifice this camp experience for 3 days of learning that may potentially contribute to my O-levels? Dayum... tough choice ehh? Haha o wells i'm pretty set on going to church camp but I'll feel kinda guilty as both my teachers and parents are kinda discouraging me to go for camp =X Well whatever, the verdict will come tommorrow during PTC =S Mehh really can't say much about my feelings now, its kinda all over the place so won't talk about that =P Oh yea one more thing, I realized that I REALLY HATE school workshops haha ah wells nth much to say left except: GOODBYE CHINESE!! SAYONARA!! I DUN WANNA SEE YOU UNTIL I ENTER JC!!! =D

LOLcats

2009-05-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

Bleahh just got back my MYE results, still in no mood to talk about it so... yea needed smth to cheer me up so went to this super funny site: LOLcats. HAHA that really was retarded but really funny gonna post a few pic of it xDD

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

haha funny right!! and these are only some of the pics in ONE month... still got alot more xD

Week 2 of Exam

2009-05-07T21:03:00.002+08:00

Okay this is gonna be quick, just taking a short break from studying for Mid-years *grumble*. Anyways, PoA and Lit paper is up next 2mro, didn't do quite well for CL so gotta make up for it in other subjects. Damn 23 chaps for POA and one whole freaggin play for Lit... really envy those who don't have exams 2mro D= 5 days holiday sia sianz~ well wadeva =P Haish and this month quite alot of ppl turing 16... but someone isn't... I wonder who? Haha but anyway, Happy Birthday Jillian, Amanda and HuiShan!~ (: haven had time to blog about it yea so I'll wish you guys now =D Really sorry HS >< I didn't forget your birthday but had no $$ to buy present yet =O heh will get you one soon =D Celebrated Jillian's birthday in parkway hahaha bought her a cake... YongHan and JingYu bought her panties =.= lmfao... haha 2gether with ruijie got amanda a tortise/turtle softtoy haha, pretty out of the norm but i still thought it was quite cute what... meh whatever~ Went to study in airport alone today, wanted to tryout a new studying scenario and see if it works... turned out, i was bored outta my ass -.- i managed to get my poa done but at a huge expense of my lifespan LOL seriously almost bored to death... and dno which horse's fault... nahh just kidding =P yea well, a new experience anyways~ yupps gotta go study for Lit now T.T stupid OffCentre *grumbles again* ah well better suffer now than during 'O' levels anyway......

Oral + Napfa

2009-04-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

Heyhey long time no blogged just a quick update on my Oral and Napfa results. First, Napfa. For 2.4 i got a timing of 11.55, thats a C T.T meh never was good with stamina anyways. For the five stations, Sit-up: 50 - A, Sit & Reach: 46 - A, Shuttle Run: 9.6 - A, Pull-ups: 17!! *Wooootss~~* - A+ xD hahaha so happy man. All thats left is Standing Broad Jump. Yea finally a confirm Gold for Napfa in my 4 years in TMS (: Sian sec 1 got Bronze, sec 2 got Silver, sec 3 got Bronze, finally sec 4 got Gold!! =DD haha aye anyways den after school had Chinese Oral. Damn sad, didn't know it was prelims sia :O sian the passage sucked, had a lotta difficult vocab, luckily many ppl also didn't do well at this part. Then the discussion i think i did relatively well, haha i say like newspaper article like that, blame the family, blame the school den blame the society xD haha o wells thats my update (: teehee lol

CCA stand down (:

2009-04-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

Heyya, been a damn long time since I last blogged and will continue to lessen as the MYEs are approaching T.T O wells, time for an update. Last Sunday went out to celebrate RuiJie's birthday. Played L4D with JingJie and RuiJie while ShengHan played Audi with his GF~ After that, went to watch Taken in GV Tamp. It was DAMN freaking nice, I strongly recommend it (: On Monday... nth much happened lah cause I basicly slept through the whole of school =O Haha den on Tuesday which is today, well I wanna congratulate the TMSCO for their awesome results =D Gold with Honours, a result to be proud of seeing how much hard work they've been putting in, however I suggest that some people better not let the arrogance get into their heads =.= Well it was also the day that I step down from Wushu!! =DD Hahaha it was great with food like Pizza Hut, KFC and Old Chang Kee. (Way better than what the school bought for the SYF participants... Boxes of doughnuts xD Can you believe it AHAHAHA xD) Then we played captain's ball amongst ourselves then with the Netballers. Haha we were kinda owned I guess, nvr go count the score. Then had a cake fight to end the whole thing off =DD Haha it was messy... had to clean the place up afterwards, but it was fun! =) I thankyou juniors and coach for organising such a great farewell party for us =DD I really do appreaciate it (: Yeaps gonna sleep soon =P Goodnights ^^

SUCCESS

2009-04-05T22:34:00.003+08:00

Gee I realise I haven't been really active in my posting nowadays as compared to the first term... well guess have been too busy with studying and some other stuff, not that its a bad thing =P Well anyway now that my Wushu competition is over, planning to skip Wushu ready, no point going back. Haha CO damn sad, SYF still some time to go and the members are like having some civil war inside or something, haha losers damn sad. One of the reason to feel lucky to have a small CCA I guess~~ Well anyway today was cool, the potentials came to my house to have gathering. Sherron talked about some pretty cool vision and plans he had for us and its awesome (: really excited for church woots~! haha feel fortunate to be involved in such an awesome thing =DD Yup anyways just now had maths/science tuition. My teacher talked about a basic formula to sucess, I felt that it was quite true too.

SUCCESS = TIME X EFFORT X TALENT/POTENTIAL

Why multiply and not plus you may ask, well thats cause all 3 factors sorta build onto each other. To have a more detailed answer, come find me for it cause I lazy type here xDD Meh yea anyways good luck studying for the MYEs people, 3 weeks left! *gulps*

P.S- Happy Belated early Birthday Joyce!! 16 years old liao ah mah (:

Fucking wushu competition

2009-04-02T19:58:00.003+08:00

Damn. I'll get this post over and done with -.- Today went for wushu competition at Cheung Cheng High (main). To cut the long story short, I fucked up zzz. I was fucking nervous before entering the arena to perform. I sliped up a little at the start but continued quite nicely until I reached the halfway point. I suddenly forgot my moves and I freaked out, in the end I chose to give up. Anyway the judges would have told me to leave even if I did not choose to leave myself, so might as well spare myself more shame. The fucking judge tell me cannot redo the thing when I was supposed to have the right to choose whether I wanted to redo or not. Then he fucking smiled at me and said: "See you next year (:" Knn he better hope that he never see me again zzz. Anyway yea so I was awarded O points cause I didn't finish the routine and most probably got the last position. Meh actually I expected this to happen since I did not have enough time to practice but I'm mainly mad at the judge's fucking attitude. Well in any case, congrats to khoon hwa and Irene for making the top 8 in their routine =D

Meh

2009-03-30T22:35:00.002+08:00

Aye I these days lazy blog sia... Still remember I last term blog until damn hiong. Now things are settling down quite alot so lesser things to blog about but no matter. There's a Wushu competition comming along this Thursday and I'm struggling to remember the moves T.T Kinda like there's a CO SYF comming up and you just finished learning the piece and haven master it yet. Shit~ Meh who cares anyway just a passing thought, would more people come to my blog and tag if my font was bigger? Haha I'd change my blog template if I actually knew HOW to change it -.- sian gotta go beg someone to change my blogskin again... first time asked Jess change, that was way in Sec 2 I guess, the next time I asked was in Sec 3, asked Wei Xuan. Lmao now Sec 4 gotta ask someone change again sheesh =P Meh anyways gotta go study chem liaos... MYEs in 4 weeks time =O *omnimous message* LOL yups type another day~~

You Found Me

2009-03-26T22:32:00.003+08:00

I found God on the corner of First and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where've you been?"
He said, "Ask anything."

Where were you,
when everything was falling apart.
All my days were spent by the telephone
that never rang and all I needed was a call
that never came to the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve
taking all I want

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, Where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

Why'd you have to wait? To find me, to find me...

Happy birthday Jess!

2009-03-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hehehe skipped school today cause I had piano exam in the morning =DD shit kinda screwed up on my first piece, probably cause I was nervous and not used to the piano or something, but I got a little better after that. Did kinda okay in the scales I guess and average for aural and sight-reading. With a lot of luck, I MIGHT be able to pass my exam... so pray for me!! (: haha yea after that went to Funan Digitallife mall to upgrade my new laptop to a 3GB RAM [= hohoho yea well anyway probably not gonna be much use to me anyway cause I'm not really into gaming (actually is not supposed to) this year, well we all know the reason~~ mehh well in any case, finished the upgrade at 1pm++, then suddenly Hui Shan called and said 4/2's remidial was canceled so maybe celebrating Jess' birthday (Happy Birthday Jess!! =D) Anyway things didn't go too smooth for the programming part, mainly cause nobody actually planned the thing (=.=) Yea so we went to Parkway's Swenson's to eat ice-cream (: "We" includes Hui Shan, Me, Jess, Hui Ying and Zi Ting FYI. Yupps ate there until around 4pm+ then 31-ed back to Tampines. Lol as expected, got teased quite a bit but okay compared to Sheng Han and Jing Jie I guess~~. Meh. Yea enjoyed myself there I guess, its been a long time since I went out with Hui Shan they all. Upon reaching tamp inter, Mom called me and told me to settle dinner outside, it was 5pm++ then. There was still time before dinner time so decided to LAN for awhile. Play L4D again, one player this time. Lost track of time and ended up leaving at 7.30pm =P Bought a double cheese burger on the way and went home. On the way, Sheng Han called me go excercise, prepare for NAPFA, so went. It was 8pm then. Went there and trained for half-an-hour, then slacked all the way and reached home at 10pm. Thats pretty much my day. Really enjoyed myself today hanging out with friends, rather have one day of this than a week of holiday. Really realized the preciousness of friendship today (: Well its 11:30pm now, gonna sleep soon ZZZ~~ nights ^^

Lacks Disipline

2009-03-21T00:23:00.002+08:00

GAHHH! Shit I'm lacking discipline, be it doing quiet time or studying... So many distractions and procrastinations T.T Even my spending of $$ also (although I only use it to buy food and presents). Crap and I realize that I have a realllyyy low attention-span, be it for studies, class, watching TV, playing computer games or sometimes during worship even =P bleahh o wells~ can't be helped, thats just me >_> sian the new laptop is really distracting me BIG time... i can't blive my dad got it for me during this time... not that I'm complaining... just that this com dno why can't login to MSN T_T... well its a blessing in a way i guess~ Anyone got plan timetable for studies one can donate to me? Haha cause I really don't know how to organize my time X= Im serious about it =D

East To West

2009-03-17T20:44:00.001+08:00

Here I am Lord and I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight

I know you've cast my sins as far
As the East is from the West
And I stand before you now
As though I've never sinned but today
I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again
Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I know you've washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel
But by the truth your word reveals
I'm not holding on to you
But your holding on to me
Your holding on to me

Jesus, you know just how far
The East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
(The arms of your mercy I find rest)
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scar[r]ed hand to the other(x2)

(Just how far, the East is from the West) (x3)

From one scarred hand to the other

Who Cares?

2009-03-17T20:12:00.003+08:00

Herherher~ This is my first post with my new laptop muhahaha! This is also my 80th post so yea happy 80th post anniversary my blog (: LOL yea anyway lazy post about whats happenin lah bleahh... life's getting confusing cause i'm thinking too much xD Yea so gna revert back to lower sec days, don't think too much, just focus on what's most impt ('O' Levels lor). Who cares if ppl are having more of a life than me? Who cares if ppl are slacking or mugging? Who cares if there are ppl who are owning me or worse off than me? Who cares if I feel holy or not? Weelll~ not me (: Ahahaha aye think too much will be confused one so lazy think liao lah =P just study =D lol but also lazy study -.- HAHA but try lah, sianzz MT 'O's in a few months time, so is Mid-years and prelims... Sian no time slack off this holiday. Even if I have lesser remidials and CCA than ppl still gta study T.T yeps doing science paper now heh

P.S- Lol even though say just wna study, i wna watch slumdog millionaire! LOL heard its good =P

I'm Not Cool But Thats Okay (:

2009-03-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

Some people tell me that I look kind of funny
My nose is red and the braces didn't work at all
They say the clothes I wear are all out of fashion
I don't fit in and should be shopping at a different mall
I studied classical piano
When I could've been playing guitar
I used to drive an El Camino
And I'm not even sure it's a car

I'm not cool but that's okay
My God loves me anyway
I'm not cool but that's alright
I'm still precious in His sight
I'm not cool but I don't care
How I'm supposed to do my hair
I'm not cool but that's okay
My God loves me anyway

It doesn't matter if I know all the lingo
He doesn't mind if I'm not hanging with a certain crowd
Some people still believe in building an image
But I am finding that's a worry I can do without
I used to wish I was athletic
But football was never my game
I made some friends in mathematics
But no one can spell my last name

He says that I am a one of a kind
And I don't have to try to be somebody else
He believes in me and says I'm free to be myself
I can be myself

SBQ

2009-03-09T22:00:00.006+08:00

Section A: Source-Based Question

How effective is Joseph in losing the support of his classmates?

Source A:
The cartoonist drew this cartoon in a bid to rebutt against an attempt of defamation by Joseph through a drawing which is posted on his blog in 2009.

a) Study Source A
What are the intentions of the cartoonist in drawing this cartoon?

Ans: (Please answer in the tagboard, model essay will be provided in the near future.)

JY bdae

2009-03-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

Sup sup!~ 2day went out with JingYu, JingJie, Edna and SiHui to ECP to blade to celebrate JY's birthday! (: Heh before that, me, JingJie and RuiJie met up at TM to get JingYu's present (all of us bought chocs =P) HAHA and went to LAN at KRTC aka IGT near tampines inter. We played Left 4 Dead, quite a fun zombie shooting game. The background is about four people that are immune to this rabies-like virus that spread throughout the whole city. These four people have to fight their way through hoards of zombies in different locations to reach safe-houses (checkpoints) and eventually, get to the final location where the rescue team comes to rescue them. Haha yea anyway it was fun lah (: at 12.30am, JingJie and I went to the meeting place outside the Mac at tamp inter... the girls reached at 1.30pm -.-... quite close lah the time... one number less only zzz. Yea anyway 31-ed to ECP and rented roller-blades for 2 hours. Edna was the only first-timer there and guess who was appointed to support her for the most part of the journey? Gee~ I wonder why everytime someone has a birthday and we go out to roller-blade the person who have to support the begginers is always me? HAHAHA LOL! Guess thats cause I'm pro =DD lmao! Already happened on my birthday, JingJie's birthday and JingYu's birthday... wonder who's birthday will be next o.0 lmao yea anyway i was lucky Edna was a super fast learner (cause she learnt ice-skating b4) and by the 2nd half of the journey, she could blade quite normally though with support (from me lah haha). It was 4.30pm when our session ended... and I was going to be DAMN late for my tuition in Pasir Ris that is starting at 4.55pm. Yea by the time I reached there, I was 45mins late X= but I still managed to complete a 3-page 'si han' and do the listening compre whilst doing it. Pro not?! Haha lol yea this sums up my entire day (: Damn 2mro got detention for being late 3 times (once in Jan, once in Feb and once in Mar) so if you see me sitting beside the Koi pond after school... Don't ask -.-

Progress

2009-03-08T01:12:00.002+08:00

Haha I'm really tired now so I'm just gonna post a post for the sake of posting and go to sleep (: Yea anyway I can't believe all thats happened between the start of this year and now. The pace of schoolwork and tuition work is on a whole new level now, totally different from last year. From the beginning of the school year uptil now is just a uphill trek of tests and remidials. There is on an average of 2-3 tests per week and on practically everyday without CCAs, there will be remidials after school lasting at least up till 3-4pm. Academic stuff is not only whats happening in my life though, theres still my social life. Ever since I've got to know more and more ppl closer, there seems to be a birthday going on almost every week and a birthday party that I've to attend every other week. Not that I'm fed-up or angry or anything, its just that I'm pretty tired out lah huh =P Haha imagine me losing steam like this... what will become of me from July onwards?! With all the extra remidials, consultaion sessions and night classes, I'm sure to die even b4 i reach the three-quarter way mark (touchwood lmao). Haha not mentioning my... uhhh... teenage emotions that goes sky high and then sea deep in the matter of a comment from others or a realisation of something (=P). Lmao yea, this week like I said was one helluva week and yea I'm just relieved that its going to end... Just to signal the start of another new week... HAISH. Yea going to JingYu's birthday party later on at 1pm (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING YU! Haish yups, ppl all around me turning 16 HAHA! O wells~ yea thats all I have to say tonight, toodles for now (:

Turn in events

2009-03-06T23:31:00.004+08:00

This week was a sucker week for me... It felt like as if the Devil himself hit my life under the belt... Yea... at the start of today, I was like thinking of writing about why does God does this in my life and make things so difficult and stuff... infact, I was so upset at Him, I didn't do my quiet-time for 3 days in a row =X bleahh~ Hahaha! but then there was a prayer meeting just now at night and I just decided to go there... just to 'pass motion' if you get what I mean, just go for the sake of attendance. I didn't really expect to be praying cause I was in a really emo-ish mood and, yea just went in the hope of getting healed inside. Yea well, I still had the emo feeling throughout the prayer meeting but I kept trying to go out of my comfort zone to just pray and sorta heck care about what I was feeling... after all, it IS just feelings no? Yups it sorta worked a little but the feeling was still there and it was like a burden there, and it is really difficult to pray with a burden in your heart. But at the end there was this speaker that spoke about our difficulties, stress, sadness in life, like as if she was speaking to me like that (: haha! yea and she said: "Our emotions are real, the stress in our life is real, the economic crisis is real, all these things are real, but remember, God is real too, so lets step out of our comfort zone and stand in the Faith zone. In the faith zone, we STILL have all our problems and difficulties but the difference is that in the faith zone, God is in control while in the comfort zone, we are the ones that are in control. Remember, everything that happens in your life happens for a reason, God has a purpose for your life." When I heard that, I was like, WHOA! Thats me man! Haha yups so although I can't see it, but I can safely guess that God is in control in my life now and yups, even though I know I'm still sad but I also know that God is still in control (:

P.S- To girls out there, (e.g weixuan, sarah) Wearing a V-neck shirt doesn't mean I am gay!!! Haha I know you jealous I have cleavage right? xDD (And yea, don't I look sexy in it? xDD)

P.P.S- Oh God! Of all the ironies in life... in my tagboard summore!

Get Over

2009-03-05T17:31:00.002+08:00

Aiya damn it lah I'm a pathetic excuse of a man, real man wouldn't even give a hoot about this kinda thing... Yups just get over it (: not gna post anymore stupid posts xD Haha later going gym to work out (my problems lol =P)

Emotionally Thrashed

2009-03-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

Dang... If there were an X-ray for emotions, my insides would probably look thrashed =P

I'm sad

2009-03-03T21:26:00.001+08:00

lol... I realized something... and I'm (kinda) sad... T.T (lmao)

No Clique

2009-03-02T22:42:00.003+08:00

Heh I'll just be making a little observation I made about my secondary school life before I go to sleep... While I was doing my homework, I started dreaming about the time where I can celebrate my graduation party together with all the other graduating classes, going crazy and creating havoc and such. Suddenly, a thought that came to mind was, after I leave school, will I able to keep in touch with anyone I know currently in school?... And I realized... probably not... During my whole secondary school life, I realized I've been like a 'tramper', tramping around from clique to clique with no fixed group of friends that I actually share lives with. Sure I share a little secret with this clique and hang out a little with that group, but at the end of it, I don't really have any close friends in Temasek o.0 In Sec 1, I hung out with Chen Yang and Yeh Hang, we mainly talked about games and stuff (well what do you expect in Sec 1?), in Sec 2 I joined Yeow Tong in his 2 person gang xD (haha mainly talked about PSP and GTA), at the start of Sec 3, I was pretty good friends with Wei Xuan and Jing Yu (I felt that I was most mature then, less irritating and just funny), then I melted into Sheng Han and Jing Jie's clique (and turned to the 'bastard' person I am now, constantly suanning ppl xD). Now currently in Sec 4, I'm with Wei Xuan, Amanda and Rui Jie. Sure I've had other friends like Shermaine, Hui Shan, Shameer, Louis, Nicholas, Khoon Hwa, Jia Yu, Caleb etc etc that I've shared stuff with but... am I really close to them? Hahaha! Nahhh! not really X= So I've realized that I've got no close friends in Temasek! *gasp* LOL! Not say I lead a very lonely life like some uhh... loners in school =P, but after I graduate, I probably wouldn't have a clique that I'll still often hang out with and keep in touch. I'll probably still talk to some of my friends for the first few months of my JC/Poly life and after that, pooof~ no more contact. Kinda sad in a way when I think of it but, who else to blame but me? (: Haha dang if only I was less... not childish, everyone is childish at times, but less irritating xD (my lower sec classmates will understand). Now I don't think I'm really irritating anymore but more of bastard-ish if there's such a word AHAHAHA! So yea kinda pathetic in a way but, whatever lah huh~ ;) Life goes on...

P.S- To those who feels offended by this post in anyway, please don't be. You guys who made up my secondary life in Temasek are really precious to me, yes, that includes you Joseph Chua. I mean, people could've just put a name of "irritant" on me and left me there to rot in this academic cycle in Temasek, but you guys didn't do that, so I'm really grateful for all these friends that I have, namely, you people (: I couldn't have asked for better friends and you guys are cool people =D Haha just that I feel personally that I don't have a close friendship in Temasek lah =PP

Weekends~

2009-03-02T18:18:00.002+08:00

Haish dang~ The weekends are over again and a whole new week of a whole new month is starting once again and this cycle is going to continue for the next... what? 10 months? Gee the weekdays feels long but I feel so unaccomplished in any aspect of my life... maybe except in doing me daily devotions (quiet time), but other than that, nopes nothing accomplished at all >< Yea anyway I went to Dorothy's house for BBQ yesterday, it was drizzling. I went into the house, sat, and ate X= Haha nvr even greet her parents xD How was I to know who her parents were?! Lmao well anyways met them later on and greeted them. Cell leader Van was there too, forced me to help her take veggies, in exchange she help me peel prawns AHAHAHA!! xD Yea after that we went up to her room to watch... SOAP OPERAS T.T.T.T I REALLY, canNOT see WHY, girls are SOOO addicted to this fake kinda romance, fake kinda drama with fake kinda acting... Dang and the story-lines are sooo clische (lmao spell wrongly) please =.=... O wells~ actually I'm not much better... I love animes! <3 haha so they might say the same about me... but still~~ Hehe didn't have remidials today (YAY!) cause Debbie Wong's son got fever so no maths remidial (: Haha thank her son menn xD So went out to eat with Shenghan, Jingjie, Ruijie and Sh's girlfriend. After that went KRTC play 'Left 4 Dead'. Whoohooo!~ it was nice... except for the LAN's stupid suck**** computer connections -.- players kept getting kicked out of the game because of server problems =.=

Yea here's a vid Jon Cho asked me to see... Damn funny xDDD:

LMAO
Joker: Enounciate! Enoun-
Batman: *Punch!*
Joker: Enounciate, do you know what that means? Its not- it has nothing to do with physical contact.
Batman: BURBURHHBURBUHH!!!

Crush

2009-03-01T00:00:00.005+08:00

Haha this is the nice song from the David Archuleta album, at last had the time to go search the lyrics LOL! Thinking about it right, some people can actually relate to this song haha~ Yups songs like this are the best, nice rhythm, nice melody and nice lyrics haha, those are hard to come by. Although its a little old lahh =P bleahh I lagging a bit
.

I hung up the phone tonight

Something happened for the first time

Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility

That you would ever feel the same way

About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we could be, where this thing could go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is this really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

Are you holding back like the way I do?

'Cause I've tried and tried to walk away

But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind

When we're hanging, spending time girl?

Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take

'Cause I believe we can make this into

Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we could be, where this thing could go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is this really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

Are you holding back like the way I do?

'Cause I've tried and tried to walk away

But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotised, so mesmerized

And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we could be, where this thing could go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is this really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

Are you holding back like the way I do?

'Cause I've tried and tried to walk away

But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay

This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away

Going away-ay-ay

Gee the stupid site didn't let me copy and paste so had to type out this whole dumb song zzz. Dang later on still have my fierce math/science tuition teacher coming to teach (or rather nag) me on vectors and such... O wells~ gotta go chiiong some hw and go slp ready bye (:

50-Day Adventure- Pray With A Pencil 1

2009-02-28T13:47:00.003+08:00

Heh well this is the end of the first week of the 50-Day Adventure. Wasn't too bad I guess but I still couldn't 'hear' anything HAHA well wadevr. Here's my 'prayer with a pencil' for my first week, of course edited here and there for personal reasons....

Dear Lord,
I thankyou for today. I thankyou for all the great friends that you have provided me with. I pray that affirming them will come to me naturally as I want to build them up and not tear them down. I pray for sensitivity towards the feelings of people around me that I may be able to better understand the problems they are going through. I also pray for them as a lot of them are having 'teenage problems' and even as they go through the storm, they will look to You for help and strength. I ask for maturity and spiritual sensitivity so that I will know how to proceed on in life. I pray that the decisions I make will be according to Your will. I thankyou for the things you will do in my life and the lives of my friends. Amen.

I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.
-John 5:24

Can't take Os?! O.0

2009-02-28T12:02:00.004+08:00

Geee~ Hahaha I didn't know people had so much on their mind other than the 'O's too HAHA =P o wells I guess its just a teenage hormones thingy y'know? Haha all the emotional ups and downs and the infatuations etc etc... Haha well wadevr~ no matter may it be family problems, relationship problems or academic problems, I guess its just best to leave it to God to handle it. Heh personally I'd hate to approach this kinda problems, I rather just pretend it never happened and live in... deniyal? LOL Haha whatever the case, just don't think of the problem... my style =P Well anyways, its been a tiring week for me again this week. Somehow the weeks passes so 'slowly' but the months are like racing by. 2 months gone now, 8 more months to the Os. Best to get stressed now and start revision xD O yea speaking of 'O' levels, there maybe a chance of me not being able to take my 'O's NOOOOO!!!~~ Haha reason? Cause I'm not of age -.-... Geee... and I thought the only set-back of being younger was getting my IC later and that I wouldn't be able to find a girl who likes me in my batch ahahaha xD siannzz anyways the principal is working on it now so I probably wouldn't have to worry (: Lol... realized one thing about me yesterday while talking on MSN, I can talk to people better on MSN than face-to-face. I guess I always knew that, just that I didn't know it was such a big difference xD Haha yea so now if i wanna affirm people, I guess I'll just have to do it through MSN HAHA!~

Yong Han lent me the David Archuleta album and some of the songs were quite nice... Nahh actually only the first song was nice LOL Haha but stirrs up too much emotions lahh xD lmao don't wanna feel too emotional lest I become like some of the ppl around me HAHAHA! Experienced more than enough emotions than I need to go through in lower sec already xD

Affirmation

2009-02-24T23:09:00.003+08:00

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. -1 Corinthians 10:13

Haha I really need to correct my habit of suanning ppl or joking about them. I know that they know that I know that I'm just joking (bit of a tougue twister there o.0) but still words are harsher than any sticks and stones at times, depending on the mood of the person. I may not be realizing it but I maybe tearing people down by making a passing remark that I make everyday about the person, so I really gotta keep my toungue in check... Haish two of the hardest things in life you can control is probably your toungue and mind. I don't have to really explain the mind part to you guys, but the toungue... The person at the butt of the joke may not even be realizing it, but he/she may be losing self-confidence and self-esteem through every passing remark others make about them, thinking that its just a joke. Its okay at times when maybe you're having a bit of fun pokeing at each other, but its bad to overdo it... Just like me -.- I'm doing it so often that it even makes me irritating. I realized this after the church challenged us to affirm someone everyday. Thank them. Complement them. Inspire them by commenting on some area of potential that they exhibit. Celebrate who they are or who they can become... Thats what I'm told to do... Something that I'm failing at X= Good words and commendation can build up a person whereas a lousy remark can tear the person down... Thus is the power of Words that God has given us. So why use it to destroy when you can build? But if I do it just for the sake of fulfilling the quota of 'affirming someone everyday', it will be completely pointless cause if I affirm a person once but make fun of ten other person, then what use would this activity be? Haha so I hope that through this activity, I'll not only learn to see past people's problems and see the possibilities, but its also another step to making me a more mature boy (: Yea, so word of advice to all Christians (and non-Christians), we need to start seeing with Jesus' eyes. We need to stop tearing people down, and start caring for them by building them up.

Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path -Psalms 119:105

Find Rest

2009-02-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

Haha this few days are really interesting days~ On Saturday, I went to church as usual and decided to go early (: Was called upon to help the leaders buy lunch so went to buy 3 double cheese burger and 2 McChicken on the way there. The sermon was a really good one... Felt that it really attended to the needs of the people, talks about how we can remain in God's love and keeping a strong relationship. It was also the start of the 50-day adventure so it also contained a few 'tactics' to start my quiet time =D Shermaine joined us in cell (at last after a 3-4 weeks ponning) lmao well at least she has one tick in the cell attendance list~ lol cell worship was great, but as usual, I couldn't feel 'emotional' during the worship... Haha I've really gta learn how to worship not just based on feelings =P Attended this leader's meeting after cell, learnt two things. 1) I never knew things were so complicated in the background of church leadership stuff. 2) Joachim can be serious when he wants to xDD LOL. Yups realized quite a lotta things in church... and I also realized that it is only in church where I can feel free from all the mess in my life, regardless of physical mess or emotional mess. Haha but then again, church ain't some hiding place for refugees so gotta somehow fix up my mess X= Started on my 50-day adventure and I felt that it didn't go too bad except for the last part where I probably was rushing =P I finished it at 12++ so... Yea gotta learn to manage my time... Bleahhh D=

My Heroine

2009-02-21T00:03:00.004+08:00

The drugs begin to peak
A smile of joy arrives in me
But sedation changes to panic and nausea
And breath starts to shorten
And heartbeats pound softer.

You wont try to save me
You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate.

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine.

You won't leave me alone
Chisel my heart out of stone
I give in everytime.

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I bet you laugh
At the thought of me thinking for myself (myself)
I bet you believe (bet you believe)
That I'm better off with you than someone else

Your face arrives again
All hope I had becomes surreal
But under your cover's
More torture than pleasure
And just past your lips
There's more anger than laughter
Not now or forever will I ever change you
I know that to go on I'll break you, my habit

You taught my heart
A sense I never knew I had
I can't forget
The times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth
How do you do it?
You're my heroine

I will save myself.

P.S- This is what might happen if you give in to emoism xDD this can also be a great song for emoing =D

Rant on Emo people

2009-02-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hey emo world! Whats up with all those emo faces? (: lmao today's topic will be on... EMO!! LOL There are lots of people who are emoing nowadays, especially teenagers. The cause of 'emoism' (LOL) can vary from relationship problems to family problems, from low self-esteem to influence from the emo people around you! xD Okay, not a really funny matter to joke about but its quite ironic lah, this emo thing. I don't know about others but when I emo, I kinda like it sometimes... So its like, you go through a rough patch in life, emo, and feel good about it LOL Its sorta addictive so that is why you see people emoing after their cat died like 5 years ago? Haha okay that was a crappy example... When ppl emo, as the term states, they get emotional. They listen to slow sad songs and cry or... I dno? Carve their wrists up? =P Yeps anyway I feel that whenever I emo, I feel good for that moment in time so I feel like who cares whether I emo or not? Its my life kinda thing? Haha but after that I will feel that that was a waste of my time and emotions haha. So to prevent that sort of thing happening, I don't think! Yes! Thinking and pondering about your situation makes you confused and you'll think why is life treating me that way and stuff and you'll just become more emooo~~ So usually I don't like to think about sad things that happen to me. I'll just pretend nothing happened to me and live in deniyal or I'll just go read a book or watch a comedy to take my mind off it. It helps numb the feeling for sometime but I'll come back usually. Lucky I'm the simple kind of person that usually forget feelings after a goodnights rest so I don't emo for long =D (not counting lower sec days...) But anyway the best solution as all christians would say would be to let God take over your feelings and hurts and let Him heal you from the inside out (: as Sarah aptly put, God will never leave you nor forsake you. So just keep in mind that God is forever with you and He is your perfect crying buddy or complain partner when you need someone beside you. He your true Guardian Angel and he will heal you in his own time. Yups anyway hope that everyone around me who are fighting a warfare in life right now to be refreshed and strenghthened and know that they do not have to worry unnecessarily as tomorrow can worry for itself, there are enough things to handle now.

The past is history, the future is mystery but today is a gift to us, thats why it is called the present -Master WuGui
LOL TEEHEE

P.S- I was just crapping all the way up there, so if anyone feels offended, don't be cause I wrote this with a half dead brain from a day of sch so pardon any directness or anything X=

Jon 21st

2009-02-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hey peoples~ just a brief prologue, to all those that thinks I'm crazy talking to myself in the tagboard, well I'm not HAHA I'm just crapping lol my tagboard so empty lahh so i play play pretend talk to myself lor hahaha! Well if this action questions my sanity well, stop lor =P Ok 2day I went to celebrate my cell leader, Jonanthan's, 21st birthday! Woooo~ he rented a chalet at Aranda country club and yea, there were lots of ppl there. He has his JC clique, Sec clique, NS collegues, family members and yea church friends (: Haha since I didn't really know anyone there, I just sat quietly on a stone bench and stoned (lol no pun intended). Yeps and thats how I spent the most of my 2++ hours there, not including the time used to stuff myself with the catered food (: Haha hopefully I'll gain some weight... only 55kg too light ready =X (girls don't kill me). Yups thats about all, going to have PE again 2mro, really pumped up for the excercises we're gna do =D (no sacarsm there ahahaha) To those having a bad day, cheer up (: Its the last day of school, just hang in there!

61st Post

2009-02-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

Hey peoples! I was just browsing through my past posts when I realize that my previous post was my 60th post! *clapsclaps* Haha well no matter proceeding on to the main topic. Uhh I'm not too sure of what to write about again so maybe I'll just ramble on again? Hahaha! (probably the reason why my blog's so empty T.T). This time, I'll rant about... why ppl keep complaining about Sec 4 life? LOL! Yea I've been to many blogs now and most of the blogs have rants on the hard life they have in Sec 4, all the homeworks, tests etc. etc. Well I really don't see the pain in Sec 4 life (maybe I'm blind! *gasp*). I feel its almost the same as any other year... Except for the remidials... its really a pain in the ass LMAO But other than that I really don't feel that there are too much changes. Probably ppl are more stressed up this year and they prone to over-reaction and outbursts of anger? Haha maybe cause I'm not stressed (or my class in general =.=) so I don't really get the mood of the cohord =P Well anyway I'll probably get more tensed up than usual in the near future... I be forced to even if I don't anyway. But till then, I probably won't understand the heatedness everyone is feeling towards the school >< That was crap lol but just felt like bloggin LOL well I'll be signing off now, toodles~

Starting Anew

2009-02-16T22:42:00.004+08:00

Get back on track. This is what's been on my mind for the past few days. It seems that I am starting to fall back to my previous ways, not unlike that before church camp. I feel very unconnected with God, and I feel numb towards it. Thats what scares me the most. Although I have been steadily attending church for services and cell, I feel that my growth is stagnant, and stangnancy leads to back-sliding. Not say I haven't been learning anything or enjoying church, but I feel that spiritually, nothing is growing. In fact, I may even be worsening. Crap. Sometimes I really feel that the phrase: 'Ignorance is a bliss', is quite true to a certain extent. After attending the camp, I have learnt so much and felt so much, that not continuing to behave or feel that way makes me feel sometimes, guilty. This sucks. Its exactly like the Israelites before they received the Ten Commandmants. Previously, they were able to commit all the sins they want, and were able to get away with it. After knowing better, God punished every crime that they commited severely, solely for the fact that they knew that it was wrong. Same feeling for me now. Before camp, I may or may not have done things that was for God's glory. I did not know and did not care. But after the camp, I knew better, therefore not doing, or doing things that are not in line with God's purpose for me will make me feel bad. Not really because I'm not obeying God's law, but really because I know that my actions, or lack of it will cause me to drift further away from Him. So now, I want to start anew. From like that time in camp, to have that desire and passion to know God more, to love time spent with Him. I don't want Time to be the culprit for my drifting apart from God. It will be so hypocritical when I sing stuff like: "Nothing can keep us apart...". I hate losing sight of my goals. Not only spritual ones but earthly ones. Example, being mature. Did not I say that you can expect a new Gabriel? Am I not a man of my words? Well one thing's for sure... I'm definitely not gonna be the opposite of that. I will not be a person unworthy of people's trust.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

Hey love ya'll non-existent readers who's been followin my blog (: thanks to you guys my blogs been empty as shit AHAHAHA! No lah just kidding =P Haha well it was Valentine's Day on Saturday but in school celebrate on Fri lah. Haha thanks to whoever gave me sweets/choc like: Yuanyuan, Rasi, Ranjanni, Jess, Amanda, and whoever I left out sorry =X Lol and I'll thank huishan and shermaine in advance for their present on credit LOL. Yea anyway it was crazy... bought 13 roses ended up not enough... nvr give Joyce, Si Hui, Ranjanni, Yuanyuan, Edna... really sorry >< Haha but wells anyway I gave the others to whoever I wanted to give to ready so not bad lah haha! Well, spent Valentine's Day mainly in church~ in the morning got tuition, eat lunch ready den rush to church to rehearse for performance during service, ended up it sucked like crap lol, forgeting lyrics here and 'zhao xia' there (it was a grp performance btw and i did my part perfectly =D) yea anyway so ended up from 2pm-9.30pm like that whole time in church, listened to pastor preach about 'Friends' and had a worship cell... but couldn't exactly concentrate cause was quite tired and my mind was somewhere else so... aiya haha but not bad lah, learnt some things on being a good friend (:
Lastly, I wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day to all you people out there and those without a date, don't be sad because you have the GREATEST God that loves you 24/7, all the days of your life, not only on Valentines Day (:

- A friend is one that comes in
when the whole world has gone out
so remember, to the world you may be one person,
but to one person, you may be the world (:

My Day

2009-02-09T21:08:00.004+08:00

Heyhey! Well for this post, I was contemplating on writing something like relationship stuff or church stuff but I decided, I've already wrote enough of those crapzsx and besides, I did say this before that I hate thinking about these kinda stuff, so yea, today, I'll just be writing about... my day (: Haha yea i was realllyyyy tired this morning and it took my mom lotsa calls before I managed to drag myself out of bed, and by the time I left house, it was around 6.30am. A really dangerous time to leave house for a guy who lives in Pasir Ris. Well in second class we had History, and I grouped up with Wei Xuan, Amanda and RuiJie to do this worksheet. They left hardest part for me while I was caught up in this book (sneaky friends =P) haha yea then we were suaning each other as usual then it was my turn to do the (difficult) question. Wei Xuan continued to suan and suan and suan, commenting on how I answered the question. Not that I should care, but instincts kicked in and I started to suan her back, but half-way through, anger came upon me and I scolded her in earnest... Haha well shouldn't have done that but, o wells~ Yups well, got my oral marks back today and I got 27/40!... Sooo... is that good or bad? =X haha dno lah but from the marks my class is getting, this is around the average so i guess it ain't too bad. Yea then I stayed in class during recess to study for chem test... only to find out that we had health check-up during chem... well I guess its a blessing in a way~ after health check-up, we had double PoA lessons cause theres PoA remidial after the lesson itself... was pretty woozy after both lessons lol eyelids weighed a thousand pounds o.0 haha anyways came back home and slacked after that... Should have done more than a Maths worksheet but I felt really tired so... whatever~ Anyways I don't feel like becoming the machine that I will probably be forced to become a few months from now yet... so yea...
Haha anyway I'm gonna sleep soon now, really very tired.
P.S- the invitation from the last post still stands soo... yea if you wna come just tag on the tagboard (:

I HATE BREAKOUT!!!!

2009-02-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm just gonna blog a little and go to sleep. To start on a good note, I want to thank dorothy and joyce for their present (: Haha thanks dorothy for the cute bearbear HAHA although I said I didn't really like gay stuff but its really cute thanks =D thanks also for being my sms and msn partner for the larger half of last year, really appreciate you being there when I'm ranting on schools and tests and letting me suan and dao you when I'm down haha you're a really great friend! (: And Joyce, I'm really sorry I didn't mention your present in my post about my birthday. Haha I didn't know that the OnePiece lighter was a combined present from you and Jess lol so I'm gonna thank you now for the awesome present =D Thankyou Joyce for the lighter! Haha xD Okay... now on to the rant... SIAN LAHH!!! &!#@*! STUPID BREAKOUT! %#&$@! JUST GOTTA CLASH ON THE DAY WHERE I WANTED TO INVITE PPL TO CHURCH RIGHT?! HUH?! HUH?!?! $%$&^%@! *pantspantspants* wahlao damn it lah... Seriously leh... I had lots of plans this Saturday for inviting ppl to church... I planned who I wanted to go, how I wanted to ask them, and what I was going to talk with them about there but I totally forgot that they had breakout on Saturday T.T... O wells nvrm, I guess I'll just invite ppl from my class or those in other levels bahh... but Life is seriously pouring cold water on me T.T well no harm asking I guess... Yeps well anyway if there's any of you who wants to come to my church this Saturday, 14th of Feb, I'll be more than glad to invite you and bring you there. The message is on FRIENDS (ironic topic considering the date but...) yea details is it starts at 4.30pm and probably ends around 6.30pm. Yeps well thats the rant for the day... goodnight ):

Guardian Angel

2009-02-08T00:20:00.003+08:00

Haish this was really a crappy screwed up week for me. Really failed in my personal life... o wells its just one week in the whole of my life, what does it really matter anyway =D not really significant haha. Well the Sec 1s finally joined us in cell 2day and its good to see that they're a bunch of open people, really looking forward to knowing them more (:
Well its pretty late now and I wna go to sleep. Don't know why this song is stuck in my head gahhh! Haha its pretty old but still nice (:

When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face

I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold

And it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me

I can be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my

My true love, my whole heart

Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you

Please don't walk away

And please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be ok

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever

Guardian Angel by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Nights ^^

Note to readers: This song is purely a random song that popped up in my head and got stuck there... There is NO message or purpose behind this post so don't anyhow comment ahahaha

Rant on Tags

2009-02-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

Heya guys. Kinda tired now and 2mro got P.E and CCA so gna sleep soon... This is a rant on taggers and non-taggers so if you tag often in my blog then this does not apply to you, however, if you read BUT don't tag then this is a post for you... Hai I sad sia, last time I never update my blog den ppl keep tagging me to update here update there. Then when I FINALLY decide that I wanna blog more often, nobody reads my blog anymore, or at least stop tagging anymore HAHA damn sian leh =S Not that i'm trying to say that my blog has very interesting content in it but as fellow bloggers, I think you can kinda understand what I mean when I feel a little let down when I check my tagboard and see no response at all since last week and stuff WAHAHA! Yea and everytime I come to my blog, I lose the motivation to blog cause I feel that its kinda redundant cause no ones reading it? Heh but I do understand that some people blog purely for the purpose of relieving stress and expressing emotions (especially anger xD), I blog for that too, but still I still hope to see some comments =P (lol I don't mind insulting ones haha) So underlying message is: IF YOU COME AND READ MY BLOG, PLEASE TAGGG!!! AHAHAHA! xD lols so if you happen to click the wrong link or something and land on my blog, just tag also haha!

Note to readers: This is purely a rant from a tired out, too-much-remidial attending student so you don't have to tell me this is random cause I know it myself HAHA just wanted to update my blog a little (: But yea, please tag! xD (for those who are in any way offended, don't be cause there's not offence intended in here =D)

Birthday Celebration

2009-02-02T20:34:00.003+08:00

Hhey guys! Here comes a post that was supposed to be due yesterday but I was too busy to update =P haha ok here goes~ yesterday was my birthday so as normal people would do, I celebrated it (: I mean finally after a eagerly long awaited month (for me lah =P ) I finally turned 15! =D yeps so this is the year I finally get my IC ahahaha! Yea well on to the main events. I woke up at 10 2 get ready to meet my friends at Downtown East and reached there at 10.40. Haha a little too early but still, who can blame me for being a tad too excited? (: Yeps well waited at Burger King for quite awhile and Jingjie came first followed by Ruijie. We decided to go to the arcade to wait for the shenghan and the rest of the girls cause they were taking a little time getting there. Jess took the wrong bus (not unexpected =P) and shenghan had to w8 for his girlfriend. While we were playing World Combat, Jess and Ziteng came and appeared suddenly bhind us... kinda scared me lol. Then we continued waiting for shenghan and his girlfriend to come while purchasing 'The Wedding Game' tickets. Finally they came and we went down to have our lunch while meeting Joyce mid-way. We ate quickly and went in the cinema just in time for the movie to start. Shenghan sat elsewhere with his girlfriend and the rest of us sat in a row. Not unexpectedly, they made Jess and I sit 2gether -.- Haha o wells~ the movie was quite funny lah but for ppl who knows me, I can't really appreciate romance stuff so I thought it was pretty boring =X After the movie, we made a move to Pasir Ris Park. Ruijie escaped onto a bus and went back home and Ziteng, Jess and Joyce wanted to make a move to. Well thanks to Jingjie, he managed to convince Joyce and Jess to stay for the park (with a chunk load of comments from shenghan, jingjie and his girlfriend about me being balless and stuff...). Haha yea really made me feel kinda like a pussy, but it made me realize that I'm not really good with words... bleaxx anyways was really paiseh throughout the journey all the way to the park =P Yeps well all of us (after some persuation from shenghan) decided to roller-blade for like an hour. Shenghan paid for us first (have yet to pay him back the rest) and we rented the blades... turned out that only me and shenghan could actually blade satisfactorily. Joyce, jingjie and Jess ended up needing someone to support them while learning how 2 blade. YET again, not unexpectedly, I was paired up with Jess to support her while she learnt how to blade =P lol yea I guess I'll skip this part and... In the end, Jingjie managed to learn how to blade and Jess and Joyce can stand on the ground without slipping HAHA after an hour, we moved at the pace of a snail and in the end it ended up being a roller-blading teaching session xDDD not that I'm complaining... Haha well it was quite fun excluding the fact that shenghan and his girlfriend kept spraying cream on my hair, causing it to be very oily >< Yea well after returning the blades, I had to rush to tuition and leave the gang. I wish that the day could have lasted abit longer but I guess all good things must come to an end ): well I've had a really great day yesterday, THANKS SHENGHAN, JINGJIE, RUIJIE, JESS, ZITENG, JOYCE for the GREAT day that I had (: haha thanks for all the birthday presents that I have received so far too =DD Shenghan and Jingjie gave me an awesome shirt and so did Ruijie, Jess gave me a cool OnePiece lighter (: Ziteng gave me a pair of funkey large-framed glasses xD Wei Xuan gave me a musical box without the box, really an amusing present =D Haha and thanks Edna for the Tolborone and all the newspaper wraping paper that u made me rip apart to get it =P WAHAHA well anyways I really appreciate you guys for making my birthday such a wonderful time for me (: and I really wanna say that you guys are really a blessing in my life =D and not forgetting all those who wasted their precious sms to wish me happy birthday thanks alot for remembering my birthday ^^ Feeling really blessed :)

Happy Birthday to Me (:

2009-02-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

Wheee~ turning 15 today! At last gonna get my IC made =D although can't watch NC 16 movies with my friends... Haha but still~ hai been thinking quite abit and realised that I have been on this earth in this world for a good one and a half decade... sounds quite old huh HAHA! Yea and I've been thinking (after much prompting from some people), is this the year where I will turn into a new person? You know like grow more mature and be more responsible and take charge of my future? Or will I still be the old, simple dude that annoys people at regular intervals? xD In any case, I'll definitly try to focus on my 'O' levels this year... kind of a crucial year for me *gulps* haha this year is a year of DESTINY! LOL! Heh yea anyway my cell was quite sweet lah haha they asked me to buy a cake for someone elses birthday and told me to lead his birthday song, and when it came to singing the name, they sang my name instead xDD really was quite a surprise =P lol trick me into buying my own cake and leading my own song tsktsk HAHA! Just a little sad that the whole cell couldn't be there~ O wells, later will be going out with some friends to celebrate (: Haha sad that weixuan, amanda and jingyu won't be able to make it ): hai stupid CNY *grumblegrumble* just HAD to clash with my birthday yea? HUH!? aye o wells glad that shenghan, jingjie, ruijie, jess, ziting and joyce will be able to make it =D haha so happyyy~~ i mean 2 years ago I wouldn't even dream of getting a present for my birthday let alone going out to celebrate my birthday haha. Actually come to think of it, i really grew alot from my sec 1 days... from the tissue-eating, shoelace-untying, mushroom-haired guy to the person I am now. Not alot of improvement from the annoying part, but definitly quite a significant change I feel haha! I will be closing up soon but I want to leave by saying this: Expect a new Gabriel in this year (: I'll try hard to keep to this promise AHAHAHA! =)

P.S- Do note the time where I post this post... its the exact time I was born =DDD

CNY

2009-01-31T00:29:00.003+08:00

Haha at last have time write blog. So many incidents, so many programmes, finally made a point to write =P uhhh okok I'll start from chinese new year. Yeps on that saturday, a few potentials and I had the honor of attending the L-Cell at Sherron's house (haha sounds so formal). It was very fun and enriching to see how the leader's cell hold their cell. Sherron took more time than intended as usual for word and then we had steamboat for lunch (jon was the chef of the day). After which the girls went crazy, playing tap-tap on the iPhone and making 'MVs' from songs by HSM, Taylor Swift and Mamamia soundtracks. HAHA it was like super funny can?! then they were like super high can? i was at the side looking but was bored eventually and decided to use the facebook (: it was then that i found out that Christy was a genious with english words. She play the word game like damn pro can? Haha yea den after that we played catching at Sherron's condo the vincinity there. The guys catch the girls. Haha it was more of hide-and-seek than catching. In the end the girls were all hiding instead of running and we caught then one-by-one in their hiding places (I caught 5 =D). Yea den after that i went home to slack before going out with my family to watch Red Cliff 2. I'll skip the rest of the CNY stuff cause its mostly all boring stuff, I got a booty of around $260 or so? $50 of which was from my parents so it wasn't too bad a collection. Yea after CNY, the next thing that happened was David's departure from Singapore ): He was a great guy and brought life to our cell, cell's not gna be the same without him. We met at Changi Airport to wish him our last farewell to him before he goes to study in australia, and b4 he walked into the departure gates there we sang the Friends Forever song by Vitamin C for him. It was a touching moment but no one cried =P yea after that i went back with YongJie and went home. Oya and one more thing I have GOT to mention... IM TURNING 15 TOMORROW!!! Haha yea so happy finally getting my IC =DDD but still can't watch NC16 movies with friends T.T... dey keep saying small boy contents not suitable for me and stuff lidat -.- gahh like whatever lah! haha yea celebrating it on Sun at downtown east... probably gna get smashed by a cake T.T... well there's a happy side to it though... Well can't wait to see my presents =DDD
P.S- note to myself... TIME TO GROW UP GABRIEL! YOU'RE TURNING 15! BE MORE MATURE!

LIFE

2009-01-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

Heyhey people! I STILL am at a loss of what topic to write on so I'll just ramble on and on again (: Haha for this post I'll try not to be so holy-moley, I'll just try to write on something uhhh... more on life instead? Hehehe I'll probably suck at it cause I don't really have a life but I'll try =D Ummm... okok lets start of by saying this, Life is simple, not easy. Don't figure it out, just live it. You see, a lot of people try and figure out what life is, trying to understand it, its purpose, its value and such things, turning life into some kinda complicated mumbo-jumbo. To me, living life simply and easily is the best. Like going with the flow, relax when you're meant to relax, don't think too much, just do it and stuff. Anyway right, even if you spend your entire life figuring out life itself at the end of it what do you acheive?! HAHA i mean seriously wad, you understand life now, so big deal, want medal not? LOL also not like say got diploma in life or something no such thing as when going to apply for a job den say in your portfolio: I figured out life. Where got such crap sia? haha I think that aiya you just make friends, do what they like to do den follow along and discover things about yourself, have great relationships, focus on what you need to focus, you know, just don't think too much xD (i realllyyy hate using my brains lmao). Yea just live life lah, you know? You're in it so just go with the flow, make full use of it, don't waste opportunities and stuff, don't let other ppl drag you down, do what you want and if you like it, good for you! If its a wrong choice den, too bad lor, redo it again lor~ Mayb sometimes the wrong, wrong until very jialat but den at most go jail only wad, as long as you dun die, still in this world, still can enjoy life's experiences. Can experience living in a jail oso not bad eh, not everybody can live in jail one xDD HAHA yea so all I'm saying is that, live life to the fullest, but don't force yourself if you can't manage it and last but not least, don't think too much (:

Haha lmao that was crap btw so don't pay attention to what i wrote xD I wasn't even thinking when I was writing =P The only fact there is that i don't like to think AHAHAHA!

Leadership roles

2009-01-13T21:01:00.003+08:00

Ok hey guys, here's another piece of rambling for you guys (: Today's a very boring day and thanks to Shermaine who chatted with me for awhile if not I'd have died of boredom. While we were chatting, we somehow touched a subject on leadership. In my church, leaders first start of as being a potential and work their way up through God's grace to more bigger leadership roles. I myself am a potential and have been asked to consider taking on a leadership role. Not just yet lah but maybe in the future? Haha. In my first experience being a leader not too long ago, I have learnt and experienced so much about leadership just within a short span of 5 days. Thanks to my blogs unpopularity, I'm free to talk about my 'problems' in being a leader hehe (: You see, being a leader in camp means that I have to minister to the camp members, to pray for them and to help them with their doubts and stuff. To do that, usually someone would expect a person who is super mature, full of wisdom, plenty of experience, pure minded and such (not to mention old). The problem being, I'm practically none of that =X Haha I was 14 at that camp and was younger than almost all my group members. I don't have much knowledge about things like catching ppl wen dey get slain by the spirit, encouraging them and stuff. I am far from being mature as ppl will know and what the crap, I'm a person full of sin, overflowing with it even. Haha now even though I'm talking about 'spiritual' stuff for being a leader, I don't even have the worldly stuff to qualify for being a leader like having confidence (wahlao first day of camp was a disaster! I was like super quiet and left all the talking to my other leader =X), I don't look in ppl's eyes when talking to them (i don't keep eye contact lol). I'm very lazy and don't like to use my brain, I'd rather do the menial stuff that nonid think one and thats very unleader-like hahaha cause leaders are the ones who plan and think and leave the work to the 'lower rank' ppl. Yea so kinda get the picture now? I was pathetic in camp, really. Before camp I was not doing quiet time, living my life as a Saturday christian and stuff so when I entered into camp as a leader, I really had delimas (dno how spell =P) like should I go minister or should I join the altercall. Or if I choose to minister, how the hell am I supposed to pray for this guy when I myself if guilty of it and stuff. I really felt very troubled. Luckily my other leader, a more older and experienced one (Thank God for Carissa =D ) encouraged me saying that it is good in a way that i feel like that cause when God uses people, it is through God's grace that those who are broken with a heart of humility can be used to their fullest potential, showing the strength of God that there is no denying that it is His work. Cause there's this verse or song that goes smth like this: When we are weak, He becomes stronger. So its sorta like God can use our weakness to His advantage or smth lidat lah. My explaination sucks I know... even I can't understand myself a little haha but the underlying question is this, should I choose not to become a leader because of my human weakness? Or should I trust in God's grace and step out of my comfort zone? Haha this is a question that I will probably have to answer sometime next year so I'll have plenty of time to think it through (: like the previous post, I still have plenty of crap for me to crap about, but if I crap anymore, ppl will start dying of boredom like me hahaha so yea, I'll end off my blog here. Just drop some of your comments or suggestions at the tagboard if you have any won'tcha? (:

Observations and stuff

2009-01-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

Today is our off-day from school as once again, our previous batch of graduating classes pwned the national average for the 'O' levels. Grats to all the HCl students who scored A1s for their CL 'O' lvls and for those who did not, nvm lah huh, its just Chinese man xD. Haha anyway feeling kinda bored now so I'm just gonna ramble about anything that comes to mind. I was just thinking, how so many people, especially non-christians, has held a conversation with me about different aspects of Christianity and stuff, and it seems that they are actually quite interested to know more about churches and stuff. And while more non-believers are asking around searching for an answer, christians are backsliding left, right and center. Thats just my observation in my 'pool' of friends though... not sure of the situation for others. Well although its not really a good situation, I'm kinda glad that ppl are starting to ask questions and stuff. Its kinda fun that once in awhile I talk seriously with someone else about stuff like that... makes me think deep. But too much and my head will hurt =P I'm not the kind that loves thinking alot, I very simple one (: Haha but yea discussing about this kind of stuff I won't get tired, especially non-believers asking questions wanting to know more. Lol aye crap, I'm rambling like an old lady -.-... Yeps anyway I want to end off this random and boring crap with a question that is: If so many ppl are interested to know more about this christianity and stuff why is it that everytime I try to invite ppl to church its so DIFFICULT?!?! Hahaha I mean if someone wants to know more about something, isn't it best they go and find out about it? And finding out more abt christianity means going to church, its the best way to experience how christians and churches are like. I'm actually not done rambling yet cause there's still more weird crap in my head that I haven't written down but if i continue with this crap any longer, the police will catch me for causing ppl to die of boredom haha but yeps, those are some of my thoughts (:

First week of the month

2009-01-11T15:17:00.002+08:00

Heh pretty hetic week for a first week of school. I tried carrying out the 'carry-outable' tasks in my new years resolution and I realised that I kinda failed miserably... Well I did manage to go to the gym once this week on Wed with YongJie haha it was fun (: but tiring cause I played basketball on Mon and had CCA on Tues. Then on Thursday I went to the TP (Temasek Poly) openhouse with YongHan and one of his friends. Met Yuanyuan, Jillan, Van Fung and some other ppl there. There were some pretty cool courses there like Mass Com, Accounting, Engineering and some others. I stayed on until 6 to meet Doro den waited in the library with her friends for her 2 finish her homework -.- Haha then went back and talked quite abit with her friends too abt... weird stuffs? On friday, I went for this Church-Wide Leader's meeting in church after CCA. It was uhhh... an enriching experience? hehe... was kinda nervous there... ok it was an understatement... I was super freaked out during and after service haha! Didn't even dare to feel sleepy just cause I didn't want to seem disrespectful to ALL the leaders present there =X the place got like the leader's aura like super pressurising AHAHA! After the service I went out for supper with the L-Cell consisting of all the Bedok side leaders. I also heard how Sherron 'proposed' to Shi Wei? Rui?(Shi something lah haha) yea it was kinda weird not seeing Jon or Van like 'taking charge' of the group like in cell. It was like a rare experience but I hope I don't have to experiencing it anytime soon =X. AHAhaha yeps then on Sat I went for a CIP thingy that involves collecting newspaper and old clothings for NJC's canoeing team. It was super tiring for the legs lah. I was surprised to see some of the things that were being thrown out. From old cans to stacks of magazines, from brand new bags to worn panties =X our team IC frm the JC looked like Bruce Lee so we just called him Bruce... I think he was called Luke or Jon or smth haha I went for half a day from 8am- 2pm then chiionged to church service. Had no time to go home and change so I had to appear in cell in my P.E shirts and shorts... kinda weird... We celebrated Van Fung's birthday in cell =DD HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAN! haha she 16 man omg... sian all the ppl around me will be turning 16 while I'll just turn 15 T.T... at least I'll get my IC~~ haha yeps it really was a busy week lah but I'm really glad about it, I was turning mad with all the extra time in holidays while not making good use of it. Busy means fruitful and efficient (: yeps anyways gotta work on the quiet time and speaking less vulgarities part of my resolution =P

Starting it RIGHT!

2009-01-05T17:09:00.004+08:00

Its the first new school week of the new year and I'm gonna start it RIGHT. I've really been lagging behind on my blogging so I'll just briefly narrate what I've been up to thru the december hols. After the cruise, I had one day to rest and pack for my church camp. I tell you, it was truly awesome, not just because I was a leader and not just because I made lotsa great friends in it. Not even because the games and programme was a sucess. I was because I felt that I was touched, not like the previous camps where I did not have the desire and passion, lacking the understanding. I have grown and thru this camp grown even further. No regrets there. Immidietly upon reaching home, I got ready to pack for Korea... To cut the long story short, the main highlight there for me was skiing. It was kinda interesting to see the cities and the food in Korea but... Nopes, not my type of country, too cheena-ish if you ask me =P After arriving in S'pore, I had to focus on my church's outreach event, My Hope Singapore. This is the thing that was making me so troubled. I tried to invite sooo many people but none of them actually felt like going... Some had tuition, some had family outings, some didn't want to miss a show and some just wanted to stay at home and slack -.- I was really sadened that none of my friends turned up for the event as I felt that it could've touched people's lives if they would just give it a chance. But its over anyways, I really have to find a different way to invite people to events cause I really feel that people are irritated with the way I keep asking them to go and I'm kinda discouraged and disgusted by myself even... Anyhow, the holidays are over and I've got to start focusing on my acedemics now. I've got a few resolutions that I've came up with myself so that I can actually start the year right:

1) Do my quiet time with God everyday! (and by everyday I MEAN everyday (: )
2) Go to gym once per week. (wanna enter JC with a good impression =P )
3) Get <10 for L1R5 =DD

4) Reduce my speaking of vulgarities.

5) Really learn how to plan smart.

6) Let God REIGN in my life (:

Whirlwind of programs 1

2008-12-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

Ok im feelin kinda frustrated now i dont really noe what to think or do but whatever. Mayb i'll come to that in another post but for now, u btr sit tight cause theres gna be a loooong post coming up. On the 3rd of Dec, I went for a cruise that set its sail for malaysia but the highlight is mainly on the cruise itself, not malaysia. So i went and checked in into the ship with my cousins and family and checked out our rooms. It was pretty small but it looked great, so after leaving the baggage, we went to eat supper and checked out the deck. We fooled around the deck singing the Titanic song and playing catching for awhile den we ended up lying on the deck watching stars (it was at night juz in case you didnt notice the supper). After that we breifly checked out the interior of the ship (stoping to play taiti) and went to hit the sack. One of my cousins wanted to check out the sun rise so we decided to 'ton'. But the pig as he is, he decided to slp and instead set an alarm to wake him up i stayed up but at around 4am i could take it no more and slept too... In the morning, my cousin missed the sunrise and so we agreed to catch it the next day (our last chance too). We ate breakfast (not too bad) and went to play basketball. (an on deck basketball court) Haha yea it was ridiculus trying to play in that kind of wind and ground angle (cause the ship was moving and tilts occationally) so we stoped and went back to the room and slacked. Then after a few hours, we decided to go and swim and go to the gym. That didn last long cause the water was too cold and we got bored working out soon and decided to go off the ship on shore malaysia. We ate brunch there and went back to the ship. At night, we watched the Dark Knight in the ship's cinema. There was an inadequete number of seats and the screen was kinda small but it was okay i guess for a cinema in a ship. Then we went back to the cabin and played PSP and watched TV... in short any activities that could keep us awake to ton until sunrise. In the end, we did manage to make it for the sunrise and we took a few great pictures, not fantastic but nice enough and went back down to sleep our asses off -.- then we checked out more of the ship's interior and it was about time to leave the ship. We reached Singapore and we checked out and went back home. The End. (lol)
p.s- due to my forgetfulness and poor memory, the order of the program mayb wrong and i may have missed out on some parts. I'll continue my church camp in another post but i wna sleep now first. nitey nitey

CCA Chalet

2008-11-20T18:58:00.002+08:00

AYE! Haha i really feel that updating the blog is a chore... so troublesome... bsides, who reads my posts? Hahaha all down thr crap on my tagboard HAhahA! anyways heres the update. I went to my cca (wushu) chalet recently and it was great! not in the interesting sense (cuz it was dead boring) but it was really fun interacting with the cca ppl after such a long time. Coach came on the first day in his army uni and he looked really funny xD Haha there was khoonhwa, jia yu, gerald, boonhong, wai leng, and some others that i didn't see cuz i came a little late and dey left =P yea i came at the first day at uhhh... 10+pm? i guess... i missed the BBQ and the rest of dem were watching TV and playing cards. We watched TV and played some retarded game (teasing wai leng in between and after) all the way till 3+, then we woke up at 6 to watch the sun rise at pasir ris park... a TOTAL waste of time i tell you... with all the clouds blocking and stuff, nth to see at all, but we still sat thr till 8 and decided to get some breakfast. We wanted to eat at BK but it opened at 9 so we went back and played cards again till 9 and went to eat. We wanted to play at Escape theme park but it opened at i think 10 or 11 so we went back AGAIN and went to slp... super tired... den we go thr play play play until 1.30 then i had to leave... thats all (: pretty boring eh? Haha but o wells fun hanging around with them Hahaha

Baptism

2008-11-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

Hohoho at last i posted another entry after a looong time~ mainly cause i too lazy to type =X yea well anyways school just ended recently (AT LAST!) and we can all finally enjoy our well deserved break (well most of us anyway...) i noe this break ain't gna be much of a break well seeing that the 'O' levels are coming up next year, and with all this chunk load of holiday homework piled on us, there will be enough for us to work on even if we didn't do any revision or studying... sad fate of the future 'O' level candidates... o well, might as well take this chance to learn to make full use of our time bahs, no other way around the way i see it... Unless of course if you're not planing to study den GG lor~
I really wna do alot of things but with my current slackness (hehehe) probably wun even acheive half of it xDD yea the 'things' include: holiday homework (duhh), revision (thats a must), going thru sec 4 subjects (if i hav the time, why not?), working-out (yea! my kind of work =D), clearing up and arranging my cupboard, table etc... (yea my space is in a mess =X) and some other stuff that are probably insignificant considering all this pressing work needing to be done... Sheesh... not my kind of holiday T.T... well no matter, i'll manage... somehow~
Well! on to the real reason why i decided to post an entry =D drumroll please... *boom boom tratatra* I'VE BEEN BAPTISED!!! woots~ it wasn't a really life changing event but it's really a very significant event in every christian's life... it is (to those non-christians out there) a public proclaimation that the person is a christian. You might ask, what's the big deal? Its just the pastor pushing ur head down a pool of water and den ppl pray 4 u only wad... i go swimming pool den after that go church oso same thing~ well, i can't rightly explain to you but it signifies a new life, that you went down the pool a old, dirty and worn person (life) and came up, washed clean of our past sins and wrong doings to lead a new life... smth lidat lah hor... if wrong den paiseh lor xDD hahaha anyways yea it really means a big deal to me and i will try my best to be the new guy (:
From 8th of November 2008, Saturday, Gabriel Lim En Zer is a new man. He has been baptised in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit!!~
WOOOTS! lol yeps so yea... thats basicly it for now, the only regret that i have was that none of my frens came to grace the event T.T haha o wells, at least i hav my cell members present =D thats good enough for me ^^ and i still can't believe i accepted my cell leader's dare to wear goggles into the pool zzz =.=... o well~ whats done is done... i really do hope i can become a different person (:

After the tide

2008-10-24T17:54:00.002+08:00

I did not post anything for the past few days as i was in a daze... super worried abt me getting retained and still sulking arnd bcause of my marks... well anyways i found out that 7 ppl in my class retained and luckily it wasn't me (: not so lucky 4 jingjie and shenghan however... damn with dem gone class is gna be super boring T.T no more bastard ideas coming out frm dem xD i only have ruijie left but he's oso as boring as me zZz... but as quoted from him:" at least we still have jingyu to compare marks with." xDD and at least i still can disturb weixuan in class =DD AHahaHahaah ^^ but still its nvr gna be the same without jingjie and shenghan... haish...
Wells... oya huishan and shermaine srsly... urrrgh! nvms rather not talk abt it -.- zZz maybe i shall tell everyone about shermaine's BRIEF story xDD HAhaahaha! one day, one day i shall ;D yea anyways the shock over the grades and retention are all starting to wear off and i will bounce back! like a ball? (sounds wrong...) anyways yea gta buck up and start studying for the 'O' levels! Tadatata Tata~~ Gabriel is gna actually touch his textbooks during holidays this time round =D no more slacking, no more playing around, and i probably wun be able to sustain this more than 2 weeks into my holidays =.=... well gna try anyways, at least im gna revise my sec 3 stuff so i wun fret over it during my revision in sec 4~
p.s- list of movies i might wna watch currently:
-Eagle Eye, HSM3, Max Payne, Coffin, House Bunny xD, Twilight (in the future)

post exam

2008-10-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

waaa sialuh 2day chaooo sian in sku menn... i was like thinking mayb 2day get back some scripts or smth den can see marks den was quite excited... turned out to b some art competition thingy... draw bookmark poster kind one -.- srsly a freaggin waste of our time...
in the morning, we went to the com lab to do some dumb SERS servey... some character evaluation thingy lah. but in the end cause so many students all logging in to the sku server at once den the whole server lag zzz... i think my super laggy noob laptop oso faster that the sku one... the sku freagging cheapskate sia say dno wad budget shit den our sku the amenities and facilities suck totally... is like i mean the sku com lab eh oso dowan go upgrade -.- the screen still the thick thick one den some of the mouse still use the roller ball below it... srsly pathetic... anyways after that i went back to class to do the art thingy... no one actually did it but got afew got do lah (including me xD) haha so yea den 4 the nxt 2 hrs we did like nth? zzz i mean the sku is like really wasting our time like this den might as well save the students and teachers some trouble and set that as another holiday lah! stupid unreasonable stubborn principal -.-... anyways after that we went to hall and listened to some band jamming, not too bad really... some of the stuff dey played were actually quite cool... yea den after that i juz waited frm 1230 to 3 lidat 4 my cca zzz... anothr waste of my time... luckily this time jiaolian nvr come and we got one hr briefing abt the openhouse event thing so it was basicly quite slack lah... but still i felt that the sku cheated my time away >< after come home, went out celebrate dad bdae. Go eat a jap restauraunt buffet... quite cool and nice... although i wish dey hadnt put that much wasabe -.-" yeps so thus ended my day

p.s- lmao for my sake... please i'm begging you ppl reading... DON'T look at my class blog... thnkx =D